Sunday, 12 April 2009 . 11:35:00 pm
number of 358 posts..o3.04.09
meet be for belated celebration for 4th month anniversary
then he pei mi go interview then off to my friend shop but ii sent him
off to the station 1st.. then back to my friend de shop..
04.04.09
this was the day ii cry myself
till mad..
the heart of mine just stop beating after when you say those word to mi..
you ask mi am i better without having you ard..
the answer you should noe it best.. is NO!
you told mi that you dun wanna to be my burden anymore..
why didnt you wanna to hear my explaination before making up your mind
and decision for me?
at the start of this relation i noe i will need to give
in and putting more effort and i never thiink that you are my urden at all ..
so why do you need to thiink it this way?
tears just flows down when the words burden keep appearing in my mind..
05.04.09
tryiing real hard to face the fact that are no longer around by my side anymore..
it's really beri hard.. as i already use to it having you ard..
and those stuff that we ahd been through tgt..
and i just realise that our mistake was
that we didnt have any good talks at all or even a heart to heart talks..
if there were this talks. will it be different?
06.04.09
the way you text mi was just the same as last time..
and also remind mi of the jacet and water bottle..
haix..
which giviing me the feeling that you still ove mi..
like last time.but u told my friend that you only
still love mi that a bit.. then you told mi that if want you to forget mi take years..
butt only love still abit need to take years to
forget mahx? dun need..
07.04.09
i ask you we like this is called breakiing up or separation at the moment?
then you reply mi sayiing can call both bahx.. (:
but if it is separation for the moment and you
colud tell mi that we still have the chance back
i really dun ind. waiting but the point is that
i really dunno wat is you heart thiinking..
i ask how come you still caring for mi that much then you just reply
i shold noe the answer.. ya.. i should noe the answer but then
i dun want to thiink the wrong answer i want to hear from you..
if we are breaking up due to you
are goiing for ns le ..
ii can comfrim telling you
that dun need to worry mi ii wont run away de..
and my heart will stay for you..
butt then u jus dun wanan to let mi noe wat really happen..
why? ii dun noe..
if it is my attitude then ii can say that every one have different character de..
is just the matter weather you can take it or not.
but loviing sum 1 is to acceot the person everythiing mahx..
and not askiing them to change..
ii told you that ii wanna to MIA.. then uu ask mi not to..
why? you tell mi the reason lahx..
ii tell you that i want to do this you object..
ii tell you that i wanna to do that you also
object .. why is there so many objection from you?
you tell mi lahx.. if you still wanna mi as gf then just tell mi and not keep hinting mi.
ut if you dun want then also just one shot tell mi
and not keep letting mi
to have those thiinking that we will be tgt again..
how to move on when i love you so much then you love mi?
how do i breathe without you..
how do i live without you..
how do i forget you when you already had a space deep down in my heart?
for you i had done so much.. in the end we still ended this realation..
and walkiinf different way.. but at the start you
promise that yo will never leave mi no matter wat
but in the end the promise was broken..
and wat is the meaniing now? NOTHIING..
you still leave mi right? so many time ppl hint mi to leave you but
why i still
wanan to hold on to it so much ..
is cux i wanan to prove to ppl
that you are not that kind of person and you
had change into a better one..
for mi alone..
but then nin the end ii still fail to prove ppl wrong..
it's really hard for mi to move on..
[baby would you tell mi why there is sadness in you eyes.
i dun wanna to say good bye to you..
love is one big illusion that i sholud try to forget..
but there is sum things left in my head. you are the
on who set it up and you are the one who make it stop..
i'm the one who feelings lose right now..
now you want mi to forget every little things you
say but there is sum things left in my head is those memories we use
to had . those hard work we put in ..
those tough time we went throguh together..
those facts we face and accept together. those words we say to each other.. ]
how to forget? you tell mi..
the only boi i loved had gone aways .. looking for a brand new start..
but little does he noe that when he left hath day along
with him he tok my heart..
rain please tell mi . now does that semfair for him to steal my heart
awayw when he doesnt care.
i cant love another one when my heart sum where far away..
09.04.09
anyone can explain this to mi? or wat is ur point of view..
wat it mean by still love you alot but treating you as friend now..
love jiu love.. dun love jiu dun love mahx..
i dun want to have love by you and yet stil be a friend..
10.04.09
i feel weird went i when to ur mummy de birthday
is like everyonenoe mi and your stuff ..
and ii jsut feel werid standiing there.. butt then ii just bearing with it
that i'm okay.. but when i;m not.. cux ii feel that you are no longer my bf and
i'm no longer your gf then ii doesnt have the rights to be
there.. but althought she is my work friend
ya is nothiing wrong being there as friend..
butt what i mean was ii wanna to be there
as sum 1 special.. whichis as ur gf de name there..
but..
11.04.09
i was really still thiinkiing of you till my heart bleed and hurt.
is not a days which can forget de stuff.
and not an easily thiing which can be forget about de..
mi and you was just too near yet so far..
12.04.09
i thought you will be the one who will
stay with mi
till long and not like my others relation..
but yet i still wrong of thiinking taht way..
ps: i still love you..
