~baby girl & baby dar dar~

missing n missing

2011-07-13T22:26:00.001+08:00

We hasn't been meeting up nearly more then 2 weeks time but guess what out love is just that strong(: Thought it just only texts of messages he sent but really can make mi feel that he is just around by my side with mi(: He is the 1st guy who male mi feel secure n not being worry(: And this relationship male mi feel that is a two way traffic flow kind of things(: it just make mi just want to more n more love him (:

it start with only you

2011-07-12T00:55:00.001+08:00

Life hasn't been that great until the day I met you(: In fact, at the 1st place we downs really know each other well enough yet we are just happily chatting on the texts n phone calls(: The very 1st day, I got to see u was when u drop by at my work place without letting mi in advance n I got the shock of my life(: but it was a great experience because I know how much u wanna to get to know mi . And slowly from there we started to move on, the day u meet mi up at my hse area and told mi things face to face I get to see the picture more n more clearly about how u take things n relationship likes(: well frankly speaking I never met sum one like you before, it's was just so one in the million(: in facts, I really hope we could have met each other earlier, but now it doesn't matter at least I get to learn from my past r/s n now I just wanna treasure what I have with you(:

2010-04-11T16:15:00.002+08:00

hao bu rong yi go into relationship again..
then in the end it turn out to be sum thiings
same as the past..
what the hell..
to people out there..
fat people also have their own pride okay.
so what they are fat. ther do also hold pretty face with them what right
if you dun lie who they are then why wanna bother to be with them..
guys always wanna girl to change for a better one for them
but did the girl wanna guys to change better for them ..
i dun thiink so nor..
it always take two hands to clap..
and this time round ur promise of not hurting i tell uu it already does le.

2010-04-08T10:15:00.002+08:00

at time i was really thiinking wat i really want in life..
things i wanted never comes to mi..
things i dont want it always come to mi..
is really the laws of attraction..

dearest, friend

how u all have been?doiing well

always hitting the bells and gongs?

dun forget i will always here cheering for you guys (:

2010-04-06T22:11:00.003+08:00

"if you argue with him, you're hard headed.if you're quiet, he dont care.
if you call him, you;re too clingy crazy. if he calls you, he say you should be happy
if you dont love him, he'll try to win you.when you do love him, he leaves
if you dont fcuk him, you're a tease.if you do you're easy
if you tell him your problems,he say you are irritating.if you don't he say you dont trust him
if you lecture him,you just want to argue.if he lecture you is because he "cares"
if you break the promise,he doesnt trust you anymore.if breaks it beacuse he had to
if you cheat he expect it to be over.if he cheat he wants another chance from you

they are alll basically the same but just different meaning

guys always have the ways of saying

but if we gals use the same methods on guy

they will just takes it as nothings..
"guys drink to forget a girl.girls drink to think back about the guy
when guys are in love they become more poor. but when girls are in love they becomre more pretty
guys can forget but cant forgive.girls can fogive but cant forget
when guys are heartbroken they tries to forget about the girl by going with other girls
when girls are heart broken, they always tries to find his characteristics in another guys

guys always wish to be her 1st but girl always wish to be the last

at times girl always with to have sum thiing happen like wat the guys wanted but
normally it doesnt happen on the girl.

2010-03-30T09:01:00.003+08:00

today

is just a brand new day of mine...

thiinkiing back to the pass...
im already wake up and done with everythiings
and off happily slowly to work.. (:

reason which make mi wanted to go to
office everydays is that i know there is always sum one whom really
care for mi and will check if i'm doing okay with everythiings..
and also wanted to prove to people i could do it..

but now it no longer this way as i lost the one whom really support mi
all the way from the start but drop off half way..do you know how important it is to ME?
i thiink you dont know. and will never understand how i feel unless you plcae
yourself in my shoe.. really..

"in my back of my mind i was thiinkiing so

wat does it important on how

young and what you had done and those replies you say..

it really doesnt important

but wat it is, is the kind of support i needed frm you.."

IN THE END, you still dun..

everynow and then everythiings happen for a
reason.. be it good or bad is really doesnt important anymore..
be it who is right and wrong doesnt really matters anymore..
so now ii had been gone, so just dun ask about the past anymore..
maybe should as about my future perhaps

people wont know what will really happen every now and then..
maybe when u just turn to the back another thiings just crop up..
waiting for you to clear up..

people might ask why i left this n that cux i know is the best for mi..
people might ask but u work so hard already but why now,
because everyone had a limit of working hard again.
the strength for that will be a day of using up.
when the one the strength i needed wasnt there to support
is really hard..

in the jounery i learn not to drop a tears easily already,
day by day i see a bit of changes of mi myself here and there
but at times do people thiink are they really happy about it?
on what they are doiing?
on what they are thiinkiing?
on what is best for others?
thiings really kills
when the TRUST wasnt there and was once broken it..
it take so long to build it but it take so fast to BREAK it..

anyway

dearest friends,

people whom really care on what had happen to mi...

is just so out of sudden..

it really doesnt no longer important already..

work hard on what is important on ur back ends..

and i will be at the back support u all.. really..

anyway iif you guys really miss mi lots..

do free text mii ya.. haha..

or even can ask mii out..

not to worries so much i'm alright(:

really... alright.. BIG girls dun cry yeah!

2010-03-29T22:20:00.003+08:00

today i manage to go back with
courage and return every single
little stuff which i use to had over there..

reson why i didnt wana to accept the offer there

is that ii thiink is really better for mi

to leave and start a new jounery of mine

all by myself again..

start afresh just like newly born..

people who really shown those
care and concern im really glad about it..
people whom dont thank anyway
just dun need to act like u really cares alot..
i dun need u to just be so fake..
just save the words of urs... i just need u to say anythiings..

those courage words i heard today
it just touches mi, but yet i still wanna to act like i'm strong
but actually i'm just not that strong like wat u thiink.

friends,

sorry that i didnt wanna to say goodbye to you all in face to face.. as i really

know that ii cant do it cux i know well enough that i will drop

my tears and cry.. so ii thiink is really better for mi

to just leave like this.. anyway singapore is just that small we still be able

to see each other on the road side..

dun remember to say "hi" to mi ya..

and do just remember the cheerful side of mine and not those crying and tears

droppin one ya..

i will become more and more strong de..
perhaps 1 year or 2 years down the roads
u just see a different mi maybe..

2010-03-27T12:42:00.007+08:00

there many time i sit down every now and then thiinking
through what had went wrong and what had i done

things didnt works out well and
was so ups and downs.

sum time it really take two hand to claps..
thiings happen not only just one sider..
but it happen due to two parties..
no matter how much i say is always nt been listen..
whatever i say there will always be a reply
did u consistent ask anot?

sum time i wanted is just noe asking mi did i do
this and that anot but just a normal
care and concern will do.. is it so difficult to do that.

whatever it is, times just passed aways so so fast..
i didnt realise that actually i left my foot paint in this history for
whole of 10months 26 days le.
what i done i really truthfully putted in my 120% of effort le..
whenever i did sum thiings for peopl i didnt wanted any in returns but just
a normal care and concern of asking
are u doing fine?
why is it that at times people cant see the problem
not only lies on others but they themselves also plays a part?

anyway it doesnt matter anymore already, what had pass already pass.
good things will kept in memories bad once will be cap as
a lesson to learn from. times to grow up le..
it doent matter where we are in life . is just like buses
will stop at every stops for a story to began..
now my bus had move on to the next "stop" for the new start.
people who cares, really thankx.. dun be so upset about it
after sum time things will just back to normal already
is just a passer by only.. is wat we need to go through
anyway we will still able to bum into each other on the road side ya..
when bum into each other just say "hi" afterall really thank
that i could have such a journey in life and be part of my history.

after every all thiing

this is wat i could do for you guy all the good memories(:

~bye

2010-03-09T20:11:00.002+08:00

in life sum time is hard to find some one
whom really understand uu well ..
but it always take two hand to clap

communication is really a bif factor man!
without this how dies the traffic flows?
i didnt noe that it is so hard to communication with
different thinking kind of people..

2009-11-30T14:15:00.003+08:00

ever since that day, the day that you left me
i had to accept the truth,even though it wasnt easy
ever since that day, i ran into him
he continuously wipes away my tears
waiting to take care of me, never being distant
dont cry, he said to me dont cry
i'ii always have him by my side
and the two of us dated
and things were going well
why did you come back.... at this moment?
one person is undeniably good to me
how could i just drop him?
the other left me once before
but my love has never faded for him
i'm not a princess from any where
i'll have to choose one side
this love triangle must end
from this day forth,i must be strong
between the one who love me
or the love before him.

just love this thai song.. ermm
time will really heals everythiing yeahx..

2009-10-31T22:16:00.002+08:00

i dunnoe wat happen to mi now adays.
missing the way u text the way u call mi .
the way u ask mi question..
the way u worry for mi ..
the way u care for mi..
the way u show and wanna to prove to mi abt urself..

now no longer got the chance to see ur text any more.
haix. i wonder u are doiing okay and doiing fine..
wondering whether u had recover already nor..
wondering wat had gone wrong in between us mi and you.

today went to office at clake quay there.
the feeling came back .
to the day i ask u out..
the spot which we were stand and talking to each other.
the spot which we use to be.
the spot we wave and say goodbye..
the spot i was thiinking whether wanna to be with u ..
the spot where my heart had feeling for it.
the spot where i try so hard to miss you and gain the feeliing.

as the days goes by, i tend to miss you more and more
and i dunnoe why i would have this kind of feeling.
i just dunnoe.
by the fate let mi to noe u and now we are apart like strangers. again.
wat if the time could turn back.

2009-09-04T21:13:00.003+08:00

it had pass so long since ii last post..
thiings went well and having a lot of fun in during work'
at field for events there are many things we face and ever day is a learning day
there are many type of people ii see each and every day.
there are negative and positive people

in office there are many people i care and love alot..
day by day the my feeling toward this office is more and more.
tend to love the job more and more.
tend to have more and more passion on wat i am doing.

thing happen so out of sudden.
why can a person be come so fake in front out u and behind you?

ii just feel that the fault inside my heart was so very deep..
wat can i do to make it feel alittle better.

2009-05-24T21:33:00.003+08:00

now a day i just feel so that up sad.
how come my dad had become like this.
and i dun understand why.

i thought he supose to be supportive to mi
and encourage wat ever i had done?
but now had turn out a different way.
and i dun noe why..
haix..

before i start this job my dad was like supportive and
agree on wat i had done but now is different..
why.. i really dun understand..
i thought famil's support is the most inportant stuff?
but now every thiing since to
be different..
he wasnt the same anymore..

and now even worst..
he start sayiing stuff which is hurtful haix..
and is really not fair to mi..
if i dun work then you go work la.
and earn money to pay for the house stuff la..
and i'm only how old only had to pay the house stuff..
and all the work pay i had is pay for house thiings..
then i work ma jiang is all give to house
and not buyiing thiings for myself
which i like.. wtf!and not only pay for
house and even give to you to buy things.
wtf.. you are the dad of the house
shouldnt you be the one who pay the house stuf?

2009-05-23T20:12:00.003+08:00

anyone!

wanna to get CREDIT CARD can find mi help
to sign up.. cause i;m working
under HSBC.

HSBC now got lots of
PROMOTION so the credit card is a good example..

they give:
->$1,200 of welcome vouchers to you when you sign up
->up to $40 dollars cash rebate
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privileges:
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even at around the world
->movie at only 7.50 per ticket with HSBC"s every day movie Privileges prepaid cards.
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->additional 5% discounts on top of site discount
->HSBC home and away Privilege
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and territories worldwide.

anyone interested can just drop mi an mails(:
rainbowhope90@hotmail.com

2009-05-15T21:39:00.002+08:00

workiing today
and after work
thank for my team ppl helpiing i
today..

and had good talks with kor kor today..
ermm.. [inspire team](:
and talk with work daddy [integrity](:

actually i dun like to hide thiings..
when i say nthiing is doesnt not means
i'm reallly fine and really nthiing..

actually ii dun like the feeling of being alone.
there is different kind of mixes feeling i haviing now..
but ii will get thiings right and move on..

2009-05-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

so what if the person always get high? and score high?
ya is true that people will
be happy for you.. but then will you yourself be happy about it?

actually i dun like to be the
"star" of the time..
sum time i score well i dun feel happy
about it but in fact i feel sad about it.. =x
i dun no why.. maybe is the heart and the feelings..

anyway i want to fightiing real hard for my
stage 2 PROMOTION.
yeah! come on man!
i wanna to get PROMOTER fast..

2009-05-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

H A P P Y M O T H E R"S D A Y!

had been MIA for a long time..
cux started new job le then
had to go attend course and stuff.. =x

but when the 1st day i join them..
when i saw they enjoy themself in office and
makiing fun of them self i was
like
"OH GOSH! did i come to the wrong place?,wat are this guys doiing?"
but then after a few days ii just join them make around with them nor..
they just give mi a thiinking of ..
dun ONLY WORK SO HARD BUT ALSO NEED TO PLAY HARD
and ENJOY(:

ermm the new job was fun and is a challenge.
the people there are nice and helpful..
just knowiing that the peole there wont throw you alone and dun care abt you..
they will help when you need help and stuff..
noe many people..
and noe sum people dame funny and ..
i always disturb him and he will disturb mi back..
laugh..

P E N G U I N=x
this is his nick name.. haha..
only group and mi noe abt it nia. butt
ii thiink soon out later after a whiles time
every one will noe about it bahx.. =x

when i was 1st join in the company ..
i was at stage 0 but yesterday i was promoter to stage 1 laugh.. =x
it was like ii had been in the company less then 1 week then jiu PROMOTER le..
ii was so stone when ii hear that nor.. laugh..
anyway tap on my shoulder" great job"

today at the startiing was so down and shag..
but then my team mate help mi..
then ok le.. then after then ii get another one all by myself..

my team i got a daddy.. mummy.. and uncle.. and brothers and sista..
laugh just like family.. =x

in ths company i learn many stuff..
ii learn that wanna to be success you must 1st learn how to fall..
the more you fall the more you sucess.. (:

090509
yesterday went to office for meetings then
went back home and rest le..

080509
went work today then i was the second one who start the score 1st..
then after wrk when to pub wit team ppl.. their treats.. laught..
then work friend sent mi home..
and see the time was 1 am.. OH GOSH!

050509
daddy's birthday..
bought cake after my work.. then after that had dineer with him
sister and mum at a cafe near by our place.
food was nice .. worth goiing back again..

150509
mumy goiing for operation le..
HOPE EVERYTHIINGS is FINe.. (:

2009-04-28T22:40:00.003+08:00

1st things which make mi sad..

all the memories i had with him had all gone.
arrhh.. sob..
the caring msg. and text.. all gone..
ii thought ii colud had some of it as memories but now all gone..
why is it like this. is it really the end.?

oh dearest god.
you noe the answer more clearly then mi. can you tell mi?
or hint mi will they be any changes down the road?
the date i set for myself still counted..
down the roads.. 6 years time..
i gonna to plan.. maybe to get married or not..
still not sure yet.. so ii thiink and ii guess maybe will be myself
making the wish come true bahx.

and the other thiings make mi a REAL DISAPPOINTMENT!

where is the HEART?!!

a daughter could say this to her own mum
saying that i'm not ur daughter.
wtf!
and that gal fall to be my elder sis
hate her man! mum is falling sick
and is a serious illness
and yet only ask her to call
and comfort and ask if she is okay anot..
then yet she say that to mum..

since you wanna to make thiings till so bad.
and everyone is backing up for you.
then dun blame mi too..
and scare to be shamless
i will let everyone noe wat type of person you ar.

even if mum got wat not good and wat she done wrong
she is still your mum okay!
without her you are NOTHING!
without her you will NOT BE STAND HERE!
study so much yet thiinking is worst then a primary school kids..
study so much all study till river..
giving you one words.:
now you are doing all this things, god is looking.. and wat comes around goes around.
you will like this treat your own mum.. next time your children will do the
same things back to you and i will be here watching
your children doing that to you..

that time you say that no body care about you then
now? you want people to respect you then
you must 1st respect others mahx!
and you are muchmore older then mi yet worst then mi..

FINE! since you had say that..
she is not ur mum..
then dun WORRY mi and second sister didi and daddy
will take very good care of her..
do a post out lahz!
tell the whole world she is not ur MUM lorx
do a clear cut lahx..
find lawer nor.
then RETURN ALL THE STUFF THAT MUMMY BUY FOR YOU.
RETURN ALL THE MONEY THAT MMMY HAD GIVEN YOU.
and then YOU ARE FREE! and also YOU WILL NO LONGER MY SISTER
and i dun need to give you and DAME RESPECT be cux you
dun worth and RESPECT from mi..

on top of that pls dun go ard and tell ppl that
ur own parents had never did their duity
mi myself and god did see it clearly k..
parents did give money for you to study and all k.!

2009-04-26T16:05:00.002+08:00

today off day then rest at home
the whole day..

as the days passes by..
the memories just slowly fading and fading bahx..
but to mi evey day seem to pass fast..
ii wish that the day will pass fast till
ii will totally forget the way you look..
the way you talks..
the way you wishper..
the way you care..
the way you joke..
the way you smile..
and evey other little thiing that you do..

wat if..
one day we got to bump into each other on the road side
how will we react?
-walk away and act like we never see each other?
-stare at each other?
-smile to each other?
-talk for a little while?

and ya..
bought new phone.. china phone.. !
laugh.. actually ii dunnoe how come ii will
go buy china phone maybe can watch tv bahx.. and
the camara also qutie good..

oh so ya!
big bye to my SAMSUNG F-480..
will miss you much de!
haha.. (:

now ii got this new china phone..
ii will take very good care of you de..
ii will treat you well.. oh man!
and my phone can use as webcam with the
computer.. oh gosh.. i thiink ii will have fun with the phone man!

update again.. now goiing play with my phone le..
tata

2009-04-24T23:10:00.004+08:00

had make up my mind to change a new layout..
last time de layout was full of memories of mi and you..
but now ii wanna to move on without having
the shadow of yours.
though ii change a new layout but still
you still live in my heart..
it really take time for mi to get over you..
maybe 1 month?6months?1year? or even 3years..
ii dun noe the real date..
when i close my eye.. those
memories just flash back fast into my mind..
things which we use to do ..
and words which we use to "ding" each other..
haix.. all gone so fast..

[how can sum1 make mi so sad but still i want him to stay
i wanna to say that i love you so bad but i dun want
to scare you away..pls i wish that you could
understand that i wanna be more then just your friend..
iwishedyouLOVEme]

but time will let my hurts and the pace of yours
slowly be gone.. it take time for mi
to froget everythiing abt you
but it take time for you to
understand every bits of love i put in.

now every bits of ur words just look so doubt to mi..
ii dunnoe whish is real and which is not..
but thx for being there with mi the pass 4 months plus..
ii really do treasure those time ii had with you..
i will take it that is just a pasrt of my life dairy..
once the story reach the end is a new start..

BUTT....

to mi wat is important now is friends.. and family and even work..
ii dun have plan to get a new bf just to cover the place
where you use to stand..
the place of yours is not anyone who can just use a short little
time jiu can take the place of yours de..
the keys words only you and mi noe.. and not others..
so..

2009-04-20T18:25:00.003+08:00

how would you feel when your close kins
had sickness which is quite serious?

is really no fair to have kins
having serious sickness. no fair..
why will be them??
why is not others?
wat i could do now is just to cheer
the person up.
hard to accept the facts.
it was just oo sudden..

and for the realstionship case
i had let go of it already.
daddy's gal grow up..
not goiing to play those game with you anymore..
think you are not really the one for mi..
not having the same mind set..
not having those thoughts as mi ..
loving sum1 is not to ask them to change for a better
one for you.. but is to accept wat they have..

when i need you , ask yourself are you there for mi?
when i share the thoughts with you. you are not serious at all.
when i cry , will you kend a shoulder?
when i smile . will you there to smile with mi?
all this above which one you had
put effort to do? none. all just a little. only..
not like mi okay..
who put in more effort is mi..
not you.. !
who is baring all the stuff in relationship
is MI! and you just sit there to accept and take
in the love i give..

when there is still a little hope..
the heart of my song will be like this..
lable:
也許有一天

也許有一天我會愛上你
也許有一天我們在一起
也許有一天等一個也許
也許有一天我們都忘記

如果一切都會過去不如留點回憶
當我看著你的眼睛我等的是奇蹟

也許有一天你會想起我
也許有一天我們都忘記

就算一切都會過去還是應該相信
當你睜開你的眼睛看一看我的心

如果一切都會過去不如留點回憶
當我看著你的眼睛我等的是奇蹟　（我等的是奇蹟）

也許有一天　你會想起我
也許有一天　我們都忘記
也許有一天　我們都忘記

2009-04-15T16:59:00.003+08:00

11 days of separation or even a breaking up..
my heart didnt ever stop thiinking
those memories that we use to have..

5 days without contact you..
do you still thiinkig of mi??
do your answer still the same?
how long will this test ends?
how long do we need to be separated?
heart still beats for you.
eyes never ever stop looking
at the phone hoping that
your msg will be recieve..
but it still fails..
if you give mi one chance to
tell you how much i needed you..
ii could show it to you..
now you see a big different in mi?
now you see de mi is just a body without
knowing where is the soul.
sum time ii wish that i could cry loud
enough for you to stay and for your heart to
hear mi
but there is sum circumstances which prevent mi from doing that..

sum time ii wish to text you.
askiing how are you doing and stuff..
butt ii fails to..
those journey we took together,
those words we use to address each othe..
those sorry we say..
those touch..
those temperature..
those smiles..
evey now and then ..
after you left mi..
life wasnt so that easy..
life wasnt so that colourful anymore..

after you left mi .. thiings which ii really regreted was
that last time ii use to have times with you..
but always never talk much with you..
when with you.. at time ii will say wanna to break up
is due to that ii wanna you to stop and take a look at mi and notice mi
that i;m really tired and needed a shoulder to lean on..
was my ways stupid?maybe.. that why u dun agree with that..
but wat is you personal reason that you choose to
leave mi and
making this choice yourself and not telling mi about it?
you think is fair to mi?
hiding this personal reason all to yourself.. ?
ii need an answer from you..
you can lies to everyone but can you lies to yourself or even your heart?
words is fake but feelings is always real..

if time could turn ard. i would make things works ou
in the different ways.. ii will learn to say NO..
and not always give in to whatever you say and the help you need..
if time could turn, in the end ii will still to choose you..
be cux of you i then really found myself..
be cux of you i then noe wat i really want..
be cux of you i then noe wat is a need and a dun need
be cux of you i then understand the meaning of LOVE..
and be cux of you i then understand that different people
have different type of loving..

无条件为你不顾明天的安稳
为你变坚强相信你的眼神
不敢想不敢问
有一天坏的可能

无条件为你放弃单独的旅程
为你坚强就不怕牺牲
我的灵魂如此沸腾
为我爱的人

2009-04-12T23:35:00.002+08:00

number of 358 posts..

o3.04.09
meet be for belated celebration for 4th month anniversary
then he pei mi go interview then off to my friend shop but ii sent him
off to the station 1st.. then back to my friend de shop..
04.04.09
this was the day ii cry myself
till mad..
the heart of mine just stop beating after when you say those word to mi..
you ask mi am i better without having you ard..
the answer you should noe it best.. is NO!
you told mi that you dun wanna to be my burden anymore..
why didnt you wanna to hear my explaination before making up your mind
and decision for me?
at the start of this relation i noe i will need to give
in and putting more effort and i never thiink that you are my urden at all ..
so why do you need to thiink it this way?
tears just flows down when the words burden keep appearing in my mind..
05.04.09
tryiing real hard to face the fact that are no longer around by my side anymore..
it's really beri hard.. as i already use to it having you ard..
and those stuff that we ahd been through tgt..
and i just realise that our mistake was
that we didnt have any good talks at all or even a heart to heart talks..
if there were this talks. will it be different?
06.04.09
the way you text mi was just the same as last time..
and also remind mi of the jacet and water bottle..
haix..
which giviing me the feeling that you still ove mi..
like last time.but u told my friend that you only
still love mi that a bit.. then you told mi that if want you to forget mi take years..
butt only love still abit need to take years to
forget mahx? dun need..
07.04.09
i ask you we like this is called breakiing up or separation at the moment?
then you reply mi sayiing can call both bahx.. (:
but if it is separation for the moment and you
colud tell mi that we still have the chance back
i really dun ind. waiting but the point is that
i really dunno wat is you heart thiinking..
i ask how come you still caring for mi that much then you just reply
i shold noe the answer.. ya.. i should noe the answer but then
i dun want to thiink the wrong answer i want to hear from you..
if we are breaking up due to you
are goiing for ns le ..
ii can comfrim telling you
that dun need to worry mi ii wont run away de..
and my heart will stay for you..
butt then u jus dun wanan to let mi noe wat really happen..
why? ii dun noe..
if it is my attitude then ii can say that every one have different character de..
is just the matter weather you can take it or not.
but loviing sum 1 is to acceot the person everythiing mahx..
and not askiing them to change..
ii told you that ii wanna to MIA.. then uu ask mi not to..
why? you tell mi the reason lahx..
ii tell you that i want to do this you object..
ii tell you that i wanna to do that you also
object .. why is there so many objection from you?
you tell mi lahx.. if you still wanna mi as gf then just tell mi and not keep hinting mi.
ut if you dun want then also just one shot tell mi
and not keep letting mi
to have those thiinking that we will be tgt again..

how to move on when i love you so much then you love mi?
how do i breathe without you..
how do i live without you..
how do i forget you when you already had a space deep down in my heart?
for you i had done so much.. in the end we still ended this realation..
and walkiinf different way.. but at the start you
promise that yo will never leave mi no matter wat
but in the end the promise was broken..
and wat is the meaniing now? NOTHIING..
you still leave mi right? so many time ppl hint mi to leave you but
why i still
wanan to hold on to it so much ..
is cux i wanan to prove to ppl
that you are not that kind of person and you
had change into a better one..
for mi alone..
but then nin the end ii still fail to prove ppl wrong..
it's really hard for mi to move on..
[baby would you tell mi why there is sadness in you eyes.
i dun wanna to say good bye to you..
love is one big illusion that i sholud try to forget..
but there is sum things left in my head. you are the
on who set it up and you are the one who make it stop..
i'm the one who feelings lose right now..
now you want mi to forget every little things you
say but there is sum things left in my head is those memories we use
to had . those hard work we put in ..
those tough time we went throguh together..
those facts we face and accept together. those words we say to each other.. ]
how to forget? you tell mi..
the only boi i loved had gone aways .. looking for a brand new start..
but little does he noe that when he left hath day along
with him he tok my heart..
rain please tell mi . now does that semfair for him to steal my heart
awayw when he doesnt care.
i cant love another one when my heart sum where far away..
09.04.09
anyone can explain this to mi? or wat is ur point of view..
wat it mean by still love you alot but treating you as friend now..
love jiu love.. dun love jiu dun love mahx..
i dun want to have love by you and yet stil be a friend..
10.04.09
i feel weird went i when to ur mummy de birthday
is like everyonenoe mi and your stuff ..
and ii jsut feel werid standiing there.. butt then ii just bearing with it
that i'm okay.. but when i;m not.. cux ii feel that you are no longer my bf and
i'm no longer your gf then ii doesnt have the rights to be
there.. but althought she is my work friend
ya is nothiing wrong being there as friend..
butt what i mean was ii wanna to be there
as sum 1 special.. whichis as ur gf de name there..
but..
11.04.09
i was really still thiinkiing of you till my heart bleed and hurt.
is not a days which can forget de stuff.
and not an easily thiing which can be forget about de..
mi and you was just too near yet so far..
12.04.09
i thought you will be the one who will
stay with mi
till long and not like my others relation..
but yet i still wrong of thiinking taht way..
ps: i still love you..

2009-04-09T01:02:00.004+08:00

爱我用心肝

不管别人按怎共

相信我爱的人不变卦

爱情无条件

缘份全看破

为你牺牲这呢大

甘讲你爱我去死才知痛

啊我不甘我不甘

我不甘爱你爱到将你送别人

缘份还没完

怨恨已经满

山盟海誓原来是一场梦

啊我不甘我不甘

我不甘得不到你我也不愿放

有你是怨叹

无你是黑暗

等到眼睛金金看你去爱别人

2009-04-08T09:15:00.004+08:00

o4.o4.09
you ask mi this quetion
: dear are u better without mi?
and you told mi that u dun wanna to
be my burden anymore..
which make mi so super sad.
you are the 1 who started is and now you
are also the 1 who wanna to end it?
why?
05.04.09
trying hard to face the facts that you are no longer there
with mibut it hard..
and you told mi many stuff..
if we were to say it all out last time then today jiu wont have
this endiing le.. the mistake that we make was
that we didnt have any heart to heart talk.. if there were this talks..
what will today be like ?
06.04.09
the way u text mi just make mi feel that you are still loviiing mi..
but then wat is the real and main reason
behind everythiing?
you told mi.. if want you to forget mi it will take years..
butt then you told my the other friends that
you only still loviing mi just a bit.. not that much..
not that much will need years to forget?
last time you say u got how love mi how love mi..
butt then now you told my friend you just left abit..
then where is the rest? 1 night all gone?
if in this case then why u still wanna to
text mi and care for mi
like you use to it?
i told yo that i wanna to gone MIA..
but then you ask mi not to..
why?wat is ur meaniing..
07.04.09
i ask you we now is call wat?
breakiing up or separation at the monent?
then you say can say is both bahx.. (:
haix.. ii really dun have any idea..
if you wanna to separate cux of ns and you are fear that ii will anyhow outside
you just have to tell mi..
and not usiing this way..
butt i believe that every one has a heart de..
ii dun believe that u can feel how much ii had done
for you this 4 months..
[heart still yearn for you. most of the time i cannot
cry hard enough for you heart to hear
mi as circumstances prevent mi.
smiles doent mean i'm okay it measn i'm good at lyiing.. ]

今夜风雨飘飘落裸离
阵阵雨声滴滴带情意
热恋时的天气
像今夜的晚暝
小雨啊你甘搁会记
拿起初恋写信彼枝笔
轻轻写出一句我爱你
无奈这全部是今夜风雨快创治
小雨引阮想起你
甘讲思念的意义
就是分离的开始
害我害我对你放裸离
但愿离别是暂时
不是遗憾的开始
小雨请你转达伊
甘讲思念的意义
就是分离的开始
害我害我对你放裸离
但愿离别是暂时
不是遗憾的开始
小雨请你转达伊

2009-04-07T09:20:00.003+08:00

how am i gonna to move on without you..
how am i gonna to move on with out
knowing the real and main reason?

burden!burden!burden!
fcuk it lahx.. !
all be cux of this words
everythiings change fcuk!

every now and then when i thiik
back those thiing
we use to do and have tgt..
tears just drop so easily..
why i will tears that much is cux i put in my whole heart
into it.. and i really treasure and being faithful in this realtion
all the time.. =x
cant you feel it?

2009-04-02T08:25:00.005+08:00

ello..
back with blogging.
ha.. had been missing for sum couples of days..
due to working..

i'm here to do updatiing due
to sum1 horx.. ask mi faster update..
cux he was campiing at my blog.. laugh.

oh my god! today is SECOND of april!
and is mi and be de 4th MONTHS anniversary.
laugh.. but then cannot celelbrate..
cux i'm workiing.. butt then see later if he giviing mi any
surprise anot.. =x

laugh!ytd is APRIL fool day.
and be kanna fool by mi on that days.. laugh..
ha. he's is so shock when i say that again..
i say: we break today okay.. then later night 12 we patch ..
but then in the 1st place he was replyiing mi in a angry way but then
i still play with him till ii told him
ha!laugh . today is APRIL FOOL day.
and he scold mi stupid.. look who is more stupid! bleahx..
so good nor.. be goiing chalet and mi sitting at
the shop there to STONE! kao.. arrrrrh

230309 & 240309
was workiing all alone at causeway point..

then 250309
workiing at west mall..
laugh didi and his classmate come find mi wor..
then they do picture.. laugh..

260309
workiing at causeway point..

270309
also workiing at cwp..
then after work when to find be laugh..
then he do so many funny de stuff sia..
oh man! ii miss yuri .. be de cat.. =x

280309
also go to be de house to keep hm
accompany..

290309
workiing with my beloved! ally..
laugh.. anyway did sum quarrel with did and his friend.
kao..
ii just dun wanna to quarrel with this stuff nor..
fuck! di uu noe this type of quarrel will make our sister and brother
ship become like dunnoe wat..
why wanna still quarrel lei.. haix..
no comments if you all still wanna to quarrel over tis..

2009-03-22T19:06:00.002+08:00

it had been a long time ii last blog.. =x
sorry lahx.

butt whenever ii update my post will be
dame super long kind de.. =x
*laugh..

180309-200309
was all the way workiing at west mall de outlet.. =x
then 180309
was waskiing with shu leng ..
then 190309 and 200309
was wokiing with auntie shirley..
humpp had nice day workiing with her..
chit chat alot.. and
p/s : thx auntie shirley for accompany mi to talk.. =s
if not ii thiink now ii still anyhow anyhow thiink thiink le bahx..
at time ii hope that you was thiinkiing what i;m thiinkiing.. =x
be wasnt feeliing well.. arrh.. saded..
*friends.at time is hard to noe how the person treated you right..
when the person is one kind in front of you and the other kind behind you..
butt never mind.. its okay..
210309
was workiing at jurong poiint with auntie jenny and yong jia..
ha.. time pass super fast when uu
dun wanna to go and realise it.. =x
after workiinng headed home fast then get change bath and every thiing
then headed toward be de house
to keep him accompany.. =x
p/s:it was the 1st time ii had so close distance with you
and listen to ur heart beats. but then through out the night
there are many thiings which keep mi thiinkiing
butt it just make mi feel secure whe u hug mi tight till ii fall asleep. (:
anyway reader dun thiink y y .. we didnt do any arong stuff wor.. =x
sum time when we touch*
220309
accompany be go work then ii slack at my shop awhile then
headed home rest.. tired sia.. =x
p/s: thx uh! yong jia for the words.. haha..
"xin fu de xiao rong" laugh.. it really make mi
laugh like dunnoe wat when u say that to mi..
butt after hat ii was thiinkiing was that really a "xin fu de xiao rong"
wat is "xin fu"?
actually to mi .. "xin fu" can be easy simple and sweet.. =x
as long as you are with the person you love and the
person also love you back..

2009-03-17T09:35:00.002+08:00

relationship is between two
person.. and not OUTSIDE who can
speak in it..
p/s: if what ever you gonna to say to mi
and make my heart gone messy ii can
tell uu i'm not so easily who will get
down by what uu had say to mi..
and sorry if uu thiink by sayiing all that will causes
mi and be to BREAK up ..
sorry is impossible. try hard bahx.
and mii and be will prove you wrong..
i doesnt need your words to make mi and
be to BREAK up.
ii doesnt need to hear wat you had
to say.
thx for all the advise but dun you
thiink is goiing far too far over my limit?
in a realationship, BREAKIING up
causes cux of reason
and for my case.. if we were to BREAK up
is not cux of wat you say.
cux wat you say is NOTHIING!
p/s: butt pls thiink before sayiing all those thiings to mi..
wat if uu were mi and ii were you? did you ever place urself in others shoes to
thiink abt how they feel? and all that ? pls thiink abt it..
at time ppl doesnt repeat doesnt mean they agree to wat ever you say..
be cux they are lazy to quarrel back with you .

loves:dun worry lahx. we wont end it de(: loves always ar.. (:countiing down to our
comiing 4th months. laugh.. smile..

di:thx for tryiing ur best to cheer jie up arhh.. (:

2009-03-16T23:39:00.002+08:00

today OFF!

then at home the whoe morning then
late afternoon then meet up with my friend
for movie.. =x
then after movie walk pass my friend shop..
then stay there talk to her..
then sad thiing is that ..
be the whole day never text mi..
ii text him he never reply and call also never pick up;.
butt then HENG gan didi pei mi text..
then in the end ii wanna take train home le be text mi FINALLY..
smile on the face and HOME...

2009-03-15T08:35:00.003+08:00

relationship started with sweet stuff
and end with nothiing right?
the sweetness wont last that long right?

ermm was workiing
today then be end work also ..
lols..
morning was piss off with him..
text no reply..
then call kanna kap the calls by him.. =x
then end up text him the last msg
then HENG HENG HENG
nearly quarrel =x but HENG never..
then he call mi ii never answer ii text say ii want cool down
no mood to talk..
then he diao say wanan to ask wanna to go work tgt anot..
=x
butt in the end ii got meet him go work tgt..
anyway ytd was my 1st time see be so not happy when ii talk to guys..
kao! halow.. they are xiao di di lei..
be uu jealous for wat sia.. =x
then in the end
be end work liao..
kanna say by him then he make mi JEALOUS back again.. =x

2009-03-08T09:36:00.003+08:00

at time ii just felt that
there are most of the
freidns who come near you just for sum type of
reason.. butt when they found that they dun
even need you to be there with then
the just hack care you and move
far apart from you. wat the fu*k
what is this man!
humpp anit friends should be faithful to each other..
using the real heart to treat each other?
i'm just get sick and tired of friends who are like this..
just oo tired to be in this way.
friends might just comes and goes easily..
butt who had 100 percent confident that
there will only be sum who are willing to be there
with you at all times?
no body.. cux no ones will noe wat will happen next down the roads..
at time you might find that friends betray you back step you..
but once you found out how would you feel?
sad.disappointed.shag.angry.?
maybe you will felt lost..
you will tend to thiink how come it will become like this..

020309
HAPPY 3rd months ANNIVERSARY !
baby boi! my be.. silly baby(:
went sentosa with be . leng and her bf.
lols.. have fun there can~
ii wanna more outiing lahx.. ~
love is just like one journey
butt this journey of love having you ard..
was just like part of my life..
having you ard was like a used to it kind of feelings..
even if askiing mi to break it will be like so hard.
ii just hopiing then evey bits of hard work ii did you will
treasure and not take for granted..

030309 till 040309
workiing all the way. lols..OMG..
tired tired tired..
butt stil ii miss my baby boi much more..

050309
workiing in the morning till night..
then finally end work..
heading toward to be de house..
to collect letter from him.. ha..
1st time lei. he write letter to mi .. arrrhh
so mushy and sweet nor..
gosh.. ! anyway thx arh.ur hard work and effort is not waste..
it touches mii.. (:

060309
arrhh today friday.. !gosh..
and is like alot of ppl and times.. iilove you lahx..
it pass super fast can..
muackx..
thx be for comiing to find mi just awhile..
awhile might means nothiing to others..
or they might thiink mind as well dun come..
butt then it just matters to mi ..

070309
arrhhhh is week ends.. workiing at jurong with auntie jenny*loves..
haha.. then at night with yong jia.. haha.. miss workiing with her sia..

080309
yeah! today workiing with aiai*ally..
then be also workiing today yeah! can see him too.
loves loves lahx..
ha.. today ii dunnoe wat happen to mii.
ii knock till my head two time sai..
then heng be sayang my head .. loves(:
hehe.. iimisshim lahx.

2009-02-27T23:13:00.004+08:00

today went meet up with ah gong..

pinggs and darling*shumin.

haha.

ermm.. first meet ah gong the

header toward orchard centre point meet

darling*shumin.

meet her for lunch ahha..

then after that mi

and ah gong go slack then

back to meet darling*shumin then

pei her go buy thiing liao..

wait for pinggs to come then we

header towards..

HENDERSON WAVES..

shags shag.. toaday be went sentosa without mi..

zzz.. arrhh.. then today he also whole day never text mi and ii also..

zzz but then still in the end ii text him instead..

cux be you will noe the reason right..

haha..

oh man! is nice can and guess wat

we had climb 105 of stairs up..

and down also 105

then total of 210 of stair OMG!

haha.. then when we reach the top then we sit ard there talk talk..

then pinggs got ask abt how mi and be noe each other de.

then very hot then ii ask ah gong to lend the newspaper

to fan ourself..

then mi and pinggs share the newspaper..

she gave mi half of it and guess wat

the half of the newspaper she gave mi was actually the

WEDDINGS section !zzz

then ii show pinggs she dame high can..

Zzz then she say so qiao..

lols.. ii guess is faded liao lahx..

oh GOSH..

than after stay there for awhile then we jiu headed back

home and rest liao..

ermm sista and friends..

meet up real soon again kk.. haha..

miss those schooliing days. !

label:be thx for the finally of UNDERSTANDING..

and thx for sayiing thos words to mii.. thx for the comfort..

it really matters to mii.. and ii really feel better after heariing those..

2009-02-27T00:38:00.003+08:00

today work half day at

causeway then half day at jurong. shag..

no ppl de can~

so shag lahx.. !

ytd ex classmate had meet up at st james..

cant go.. got work.. then if never work ii

doubt ii can go also.. cux ... ha..thiink also noe liao.

second thiings to shag abt..

be is goiing sentosa tml with his brothers all.

arhhhhhhhh ii cant go.. wth.. !

ii wanna to tag along lahx.

wtF**k

eeeeeeeeee.. bu hao de.. ! sob

one thiings to hate abt..

-> PSP.. ii hate it really hate it..

2009-02-26T00:12:00.002+08:00

erm let talk abt the work today..
ermm normally nor..
butt shag..
sales got over 100

today had talk out everythiing with be..
ii really cannot stand liao..
ii text him..
ii say:
thiings between us really change le. didnt
be notice dao mahx.. ii didnt noe how it start to change de..
conversation started to getting short the way be's reply..
i;m really feeling down.. if this is the result of
cux we our love is getting stronger i rater dun wanna this kind of
relationship.. dun say ii thiink too much is really
obvious are we still tgt cux of love or just for the sake of being tgt
if be is tired le dun bare with it
anymore le bahx..
ii didnt noe that he will reply that fast..
his reply:
dear, why are u always like that ? uu noe how hurtful u just say that?
i thought u told mi you will help mi walk strongly to pass all tough thiingy? but
now you are sayiing all this.. is it cos of other things?
then ii text back.. :
cux of wat thiings? is not like ii likt other ppl or wat.. i;m always faithful to
this realtionship i was just wonderiing wat's on be de mind.. i
was always thiinking wat happen to be..
wat is be thiinkiing there are many question mark in my mind..
was wondering wat really gone wrong..
each n every time ii sit down and see back those thiings uu sent mi last
time and now.. hearts really aches. always keep guessing where has those feeling
gone to but result back was i'm thiinkiing too much..when is obvious and clear.
his reply:
dear not i wan like that sms,firstly is cux i'm really tired always
need to do tough thiingy,aiya many la.. i wont sms soo short le k?
my text:
den you should explain to mi mahx..
den letting mi keep guessing and thiinkiing like crazy girl
n keep sayiing no la you thiink too much liao..
his reply:
very tired tired lei..
dear, i'm always the same de.. haix.. ii noe why u will like that de la
muack dun like that le k? ai ni.. muackx..

after those talk ii finally can breathe le..
just wanna to express all my feeliing ..
and let him noe what am i thiinkiing.
sum time is not wrong to express your thiinkiing
to the person you like.. and love..
if never express on day really will quarrel till
dun worry i'm still in love with you.. !mad.. !

at time ii was thiinkiing wat are friends for.. ?

only true friends will always stand by you 24 hr
when you need help right..
haha.. i'm so luckily that ii got one. (:
and ii never regret of knowiing her..
tsktsk. you noe i'm talkiing abt you..
dun shy le lahx.. (:

to friends who concern.

dun worry, you guys wil never walk all by urself in life..
ii will always be there with you stand by ur side..
ii always treat friendship faithful and
ii dun need any in returns if i help you .
ii dun care how others treat mi..
even thought they wear a mask to
act to treat mi nice ii also dun care.
if you thiink by this way uu feel happy so be it..
ii just wanna to treat ppl nice that all..
wearing a mask to pass life is so tough and uneasy..
is just sooooooooooooooo too super FAKE!
one fine day the mask will drop and
every one will see the true colours of the person..

2009-02-25T00:18:00.002+08:00

back with blogging..
today ii dame bored.. ~

ha.. morning wake up give be morning calls..
then went back sleep awhile then jui wake up bath
then prepare myself..
then text be to double ceck if he wake up already.. =x
ha.. ii miss him dame alot.. 4 more days to see him..
5 more days to anniversary. !
happy jump jump..

today end work.. his friend terence came my shop
to find mi then ii accompany him to wait for his
stead end work then headed home.
while waiting. slack at cwp shopping centre downstait..
then talk to him abt be de stuff..
then msgs with be.. ha.. be really make mi smile can~

that day ii ask him.
->ai yao zen mo shuo , shuo le zen mo zuo
his reply was
->love is not sumthiing which can say or done de. it's all abt feelings.
haha!

today ii ask him..
->100 percnt serious asking what type of gf am i in be de heart.
his reply..
->errmm cariing but thiink many many sweet but too honey le..
nice and somone who can last for life. =x
lols.. be is hintiing mi sum thiings..
ha finally hear wat ii wanna to hear for long le..
is like past for dun noe how many days le..
butt today finally..
haha..
it really make mi smile can.. ~
thx be. always knowiing the way to cheer mi up..
silly baby~

2009-02-22T23:44:00.002+08:00

back with blogging.

today working at west mall..
shag can..
super tired.. !
ermm alot of ppl.

ha..
today be also workiing then can see him..
yeah! happy till mad..
cux ii already 4 days never see him liao..
then today finally can.. !

saded!friday ii off then he also never work
then he is goiing SENTOSA without mi.. arhhh..
where can like this.. !
sobsobsobsob..
he goiing with he brothers..
sob..
ii want to tag along..

8 more days to go.. (:

2009-02-19T23:07:00.004+08:00

back to blogging..
shag shag shag.. !

180209
was workiing all alone
at west mall..
sales okay la.
still can see hundred. =x

190209
today early in the morning jiu receive calls
from auntie!
oh gosh.. early in the morning can!
and i'm still in lala land..
7 plus can!
shag auntie jenny is sick..
then ii have to work the whole days in
jurong.. =x
mi:auntie jenny get well soon..
talk abt the sale..
is was like OMG in the morning till later eveniing..
only 5 bucks. ! wth..
then heng till night time still have 79.90 for sales..
last but not least..
ii was shock that be will talk to mi in this way..
is the 1st time can!
ii was lost of words.
爱要怎么说说了怎么做
mi:be pls dun talk to mi in this way.
even my parents never talk to mi or even shout at
mi on phone before..
angry. disappointed . lost . sad .
dun wanna to talk anymore.

2009-02-17T23:39:00.004+08:00

back to blog for awhile.. =x
humpp
all ths while had been workiing.. =x
so no time to update..
butt now only update a short one..
cux be nagging at mi liao.
cuxx ii was sick not feeliing well then he keep ask mi faster go orh orh..

170209
was workiing alone today..
then suddenly be appear in front of mi sia..
xia shi wo.
zzzz
he accompany his friend go take number from ppl..
zzz they so bo liao can.. ~
*two new promises from be today.. =x

160209
today was wrkiing
with be de mummy..
then have fun man!
laugh laugh talk talk..
*sum time ii feel tired can..
needed a shoulder to rest on..

150209
alone working.. and shag ..
butt heng time pass fast today.. !
and the whole shopping mall no ppl de.
so quite. sale wasnt that good..

140209
today off day..
then head towards jurong
find auntie jenny then after that went to west mall
to look for be..
then wait him to end work..
then head to causeway..
to meet up with his friend and her stead..
then head to his house talk talk .
then play games then they sing song..
slack till 12 plus then leave. =x

cookie ii made for be.. =x
*be say he touch till dun feel like eatiing it..
DOTS!

rose which be fold for mi. =x
*thx for the hard work..
ya is not a guy who will do de thiings..

cookie be do for mi. =x

2009-02-12T23:04:00.002+08:00

morning was workiing at cwp ..
then after that be de mummy come..
then have small talks with her 1dt
then head toward to jurong point to work..
arhhh forget to take the stuff for jurong point..
miner: thx for helpiing mi to bring down the
stuff.. (:
working all alone at jurong point..
sian..=x
finally end work liao..
sales bad like dun no wat.
took train all alone..
OMG! i cry inside the train.
and so many ppl look at mi..
thought wat happen.. =x
sorry for all those break promise..
sorry for letting you down..
sorry for wat i had say..
sorry for tetting you disappointed..
sorry that i cant give u the most..
ihatemyself
for lying to you..
where is the love.?
where is the understanding.?
where is all the cares.?
where is the everything.?
do u really really seriously love mi?

2009-02-08T22:33:00.002+08:00

oh gosh . it had pass so long
since i last up date..
friends all say my blog is dead like dunno wat..

all this day was busy workiing..
then meetiing up with be..

08-02-09
butt ii just dun noe wat to update lei..
morning head towrad be de house to wake him up
for work. then pei him go work..
then ii went shopping ard then after that went back find him..

then find him wait for him to end work..
then meet up with titus and his other friend..
then after eat dinner the we walk to be de house downstair then
they pei mi wait bus.
the moment i step and borad the bus..
my mood now was like super down can.. ~
feel like cryiing .. feel like keeping quite and not sayiing anythiing..
ii dun noe why it will be like this..
ii dun wanna to be alone..
ii just wanna to stick with you.
ii miss you can!
is really hard to say good bye.
be, when ever we need to turn ard and leave..
my heart is bleeding and achiing.
the pieces of my heart is missing you..

02-02-09
went out to celebrate anniversary with be..
HAPPY TWO MONTHS!
then we went for movie then after that we head toward my home for steam boat..
then after that ii sent be home..
haix.. ii just hate the part where as we needed to say good bye.

~~sum time ii felt that it is important to find out the truth le then~~
come and scold ppl.. is really hard to appect to been scold when is not ur fault..
every body hae their limit de.. why wanna to go over the limit line?

ii thiink ii really needed a BREAK!
ii needed a BREAK to take a breath
ii needed a BREAK to thiink abt thiings clearly..
ii needed a BREAK to do thiings i like

2009-01-17T23:44:00.003+08:00

yo yo yo..
back with blogging today..

160109
aarhhhhhhhhhhhh.. i
i hate this day! ermm workiing alone at causeway point today.
and i guess that will have alot of ppl de.. =x
humpp.. and ii guess wrong sia..
today not much ppl..
and time pass fast man~
then at night be come find mi awhile then he jiu go off le..

170109
today workiing at jurong..
with auntie jenny then at night
with yong jia.. =x
humpp.. than talk alot with her all that
cux must wait till long then work
with her again.. =x
then after end work rush to west mall to help
auuntie to collect sales
then back to cwp to pass auntie..

180109
YES yes YES yes!
tml off day.. haha..
then gonna to go out with be tml ..
haha.. will update more for tml de.. (:

2009-01-16T09:04:00.003+08:00

before ii go for work ii just wanna to
blog and post..

120109
today id my off days..
then ii morniing head toward queensway
to shop for my new year clothes..
all by myself.. arhhhhhhhhh
but never mind lahx..
cux be got sum thiing on
the same day..
so ii go shoppiing myself 1st nor..
after shoppiing..
then ii head toward home 1st..
to rest..
then rest home thought can orh orh awhile
while waitiing for his calls
then talk talk to daddy then end up cannot slp..
then after that be jiu msg mi liao.
then jiu go out le..
humpp..
then head toward amk to meet be and his mummy..
oooppsss..
humpp pei be and his mummy eat dinner.
haha..
be de mummy keep talkiing to mi nor..
Zzzz.. ahah.. happy.
then be de mummy ask mi where ii wanna to sit
ha.., then ii say anywhere also can ar..
then she ask mi to sit beside be .. lala.
then after they eat hao le.
mi and be go walk walk ard at amk..
haha.
then after be sent mi home..
la.. happy lei.. 1st time after so long..

130109
toady work at causeway..
alone.. zzzz..so bored can.. !

140109
today work at west mall.. haha..
happy early be sent mi to work..
zzz then pei mi awhile ju meet his friend..
then after that he come back my shop to find mi..
haha.. thx. (:
*ii just like spentiing time with you..

150109
不要说你爱我你想我
如果你的心里没有这么做
只是勉强的敷衍我
我知道了会很难受
today morniing work at causeway then after that work at jurong..
arrrhh.. sales is dame super bad can..
i'm worry abt be man!
*be ii really dun want you to face thiings.. yourself.. =x
just wanna to share with you.. =x
no matter wat ii will always be there for you de..
ii just wanna to stay there with you to face everythiings..
ii dun wanna you to face it yourself..
be, everybody will had their own mistake
be it is small or big.
there is alwyas a chance for every one de..

2009-01-11T23:38:00.001+08:00

back with my blogging again.. (:
uploadiing pic of wat be had done for mii(:

060109
today off day so
morning wake up le ..
bath all that then head toward
be de house to meet him ..
then after that back to causway go shop
pei be de mummy..
ha..
*topic again.. :edward.. -.-''
there is never a topic which is not edward de when
ever ii was talkiing to her.. haha.. but really enjoy
talkiing with her.. and ii miss those days workiing with her can~

070109
wasa workiing at west mall..
hump.. time pass so dame slow and the sales
suc can~. grump.
thought today friends will come accompany mi..
but all got tai ji then neer come..
butt then be come accompany
mi awhile jiu go meet his friends all le. =x
*how i wish it was last time
when be could sent mi home after my work.. =x

080109
was workiing alone at causeway point today too.. :(
ii hate thought feelings of workiing alone..
butt no choice have to work.
butt then thiink back is okay lahx..
when uu got stuff to do ..
time will pass even more faster..
ZZZZ
be come down shop find mi pei mi
eat dinner le then jiu go home.
diao. butt thx.. (:

090109
alone again..
arrrrrhhh..
that mr FISH & CHIPs was here ..
zzz.. didnt wanna to talk much with him so ..
ii act act busy doiing my stuff all=x
told be abt that..
then be worry say if he ask abt number all stuff again..
just tell him ii got bf liao.. -.-'''
*be he is too dame old for mii can..
he can e my sugar daddy liaox.. haha..

100109
today need to travel far for work.
is at jurong point can!zzz
butt then heng morning be wake up early for mi just to sent mi off
to work .. haha.. jump jump*
happy can~
*thx for putting effort by doiing all this..
it really touches mi and ii love the feelings
when ever you accompany mi to work
reach work place.. check this check that.. order
this and that..
business there was not bad today.. loves it!
then after work when home.. train with yong jia..
then when was on the train just found out that
my jacket was left in the shop.. arrrrrh
SHAG!SHAG!SHAG!
ii miss my jacket can!

110109
ytd told be abt that.. then be so good can..
travel alll the way down to
jurong point to help mi take my jacket.
thx. love ya(:
today was workiing at causeway point..
with my 7 yr of friend.. k.w.c
haha. time pass fast whenever i'm workiing with her.. =x

*ha.. on the way home.. be call mi just to say the three words
to mi. zzz.. so dame funny can.. ha..
butt thank.. 1st time he call mi and say it to mi(:
love.. sweet dream le lorx.. to night.. (:

2009-01-07T22:58:00.004+08:00

ello.. every body i;m back..
anyway had change a new blog
skin as it is a brand new year..

k let talk about wat ii had done
and wat happen for the time when i'm not blogging..

01-01-09
happy new year~
humpp was workiing with be de mummy at cause way point..
zzz.. so shag and tired can..
and is like we bought our lunch wanna to eat but
dun have the time to eat..
=x
then till like eveniing time then go the time to eat..
wth.. arrhh..
ha la.. ! tml if off day and is
ANNIVERSARY(:
*oh gosh .. ii heaven finish writing the book.. =x

02-01-09
HAPPY one MONTH anniversary(:
to my pig head, lazy pig, be(:
meet be at my work place..
then ii reach there early so
carry on writiing the book..
as ii heaven finish..
cux cant give when is not finsh writiing..
so ii use the time ii have to finsh writiing..
and the timiing was just nice.
when ii finish writiing not long ago.. be cme liao..
then we take train
headed toward.. marina square .. go buy the show ticket first..
then after that we go eat bluffet.. then eat hao le..
go watch show le..
wooooooooo! the show was nice.. haha..
then after the show was late le then took cab
sent be home liao then ii go home..
*pig head.. hope uu really enjoy the day(:
iiloveyou.. and ii dun wanna our anniversay just stop
for a few months.. but a last long de(:
hope uu like the little dairy of our thiing which
ii had write for you.. (:

03-01-09
workiing workiing.. haix..

04-01-09
thx you be for the surprise ou give horx..
bluff mi .. keep msgiing with wo then ii thought uu at home..
then uu suddenly pop out in front of mi to sent the
gift which you wanna to give mi de..
humpp.. really beri touchiing for wat u had done..
*sorry to make be cant slp for few days just to fole all this for mii..
humpp.. ya is not a guy whom will do de thiings..
butt really touch that uu will do this for mi(:
[picture will post in the next post when ii take the pic of it](:

05-01-09
workiing all by myself liao..
sad! then early go work then saw be downstair the
causeway point shoppiing central
then he say actually wanna come find mi de..
but then he need go do sum thiings liao..
then he jiu go off le..
humpp now adays be always pop out in front of
mi without msgiing mi or telliing mi..
ha.. wat a surprise.. (:
then be say 6 in the eveniing wanna come find mi ..
then in the end wake up at 7 .. =x sadded.

06-01-09
wake up early then go bath all that..
then see handphone.. be msg mi..
then do hap everythiing le.. headed toward be de house find be..
then not long later his friend msg mi
then he never care carry on his slp..
then phone ring he wake up and answer then bath le
then we jiu go out le.. then he meet his friend ii go
pei be de mummy
as she is workiing at cwp today.. (:
*see i'm a kind soul can. ~and ii will update my blog today cux.. be de mummy
say faster update lei. haha.. =x
then talk talk with her then 430 jiu went home rest.. got headache again.. sob..
hate this kind of feeliings.. =x

07-01-09
arrhhhhh westmall..
workiing there today.. dun like to go
there but wat to do..
humpp work work work,, then
after awhile be come find mi pei mi awhile then he jiu go meet his friend
le.. humpp just now angry nor..
msg be never reply. =x
haix.. dun care him le..
butt then say say only .. but never do..
cux ii love him more then angry with him nor.. so no choice
forgive him(:
*was thiinkiing abt wat will happen on 16th..
ii dun wanna anythiing to happen..
humpp .. wat if be de mummy object mi and be together.?
wat will be do ? haix.. ii dun wanna lahx.. ii waill to stick with be always
humpp.. ii really try my best not to go
thiink abt it le..
cux ii believe be that he wont let this happen de..
and ii also believe be wanna we to last long(:
butt ii sum how will go thiink abt it..
thiink abt be de mummy like mi not..
if be de mummy dun like mi how?
haix.. kkk STOP thiinkiing..
my boi ii miss you.. !
now adays ii will tend to miss be beri fast.
thiink ii slowly love him more and more le. (:
[if you and ur f or gf stay and live for beri long le . ur
love for them will still left how much?]
[for the startiing is alot. but when the times goes by. how much will it left?]

2008-12-31T00:09:00.002+08:00

label: feeling out of sudden.

today was workiing at jurong but
actually was workiing at causeway de but
then last min change to jurong..
sian.. have to take a long duration of train to there.
then msg with ally..
then after that late afternoon
be msg mi then we talk talk nor..
haix.. then ii suddenly talk abt my past thiings to
let him noe..
ii told him that ii last time did cut my hand
with pen knife before..
then be de raction was like angry angry like
this..
then he say he can forget and forgive wast ii ahd done last time..
be also say that ii wont do that anymore when i'm with him..
then ii say orh.. and ii also promise ppl ard that ii wont do that too le.
be so dun need to worry k?
*be anway sorry for thiinkiing negative at time..
haix.. ii also not mean to de.. =x

anyway still got one more days to our anniversary le..
haix.. lookiing forward? or not lookiing forward.
wat should ii do or wat can ii do to surprise be?
*ii just dun wanna our anniversary
to stop just for awhile.
ii wanna to last super long with be..
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid without you there to see me through
Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of youIt's all brand new
My life is now worth while
I can't imagine me without you
no matter wat hapen ii had already make up my mind that ii just wanna
to stick with be till it last forever. is not a joke is
serious de when ii say that..

2008-12-26T10:39:00.003+08:00

label: merry christmas!

25-12-08
went to work today..
humpp.. then so lookiing forward to end work nor..
then after work headed towards woodland..
to meet up with
min er her bf, min er sister and brother.leng.
then we headed toward be de house..
then we celebrate his birthday and also christmas.
then we play toopid game..
ha! then lost de must drink half cup of water..
then ii cant finish then be help mi to drink..
ha=x
then after finish the game we sing birthday song with be..
then cut cake eat liao..
then min er they all sabo be.. so ke lian
butt then ii good soul nor.. ii never sabo him.. hahah
*be de mummy noe ii his gf lioa..
OMG.. so fast nor..

26-12-08
arrhh.. thiink gonna to rot at home liao..
sob..
haviing steam boat.. sian.. =x
wanna ask be to come de butt then be got sum thiing on liao..
sob..
updates!
humpp went out with nora headed to
collect her tickets to KL
at golden mile complex.
then after that head towards to vivo city
actually plan to watch shows there butt hen the sits was like ermm
fully book nor..
then never mind..
we change the ideal of goiing to town to watch show..
then we heads toward orchard to watch show.
bought the ticeket to watch the show..
but we go had our dinner 1st..
after eatiing then went
watch TWILIGHT!'
oh man! the show was nice can!
the storys lines was like ermmm nice.. arrrhh..
ii wanna watch again.. !
thiink ii siao right but is kind of super nice!
bf went home late! arrrhhh..
he play till forget the timiing.. humpp..
then kanna worry. butt then his mummy calls and check where is he all that
le.. then ii thiink his mummy got help him cover..
*be next time must be home early horx.
you promise mi that you will be good boi de horx..
dun forget.. if not i jiu.. haha.. =x
humpp 6 more days! to anniversary. (:
promise to be there for you. till the very ends.

2008-12-24T09:04:00.003+08:00

label: it's not aways bad to wait.

ha!be is back.. lost contact as where sum thiing
had happen but not gonna to say much..
as long as he is okay..
*pls dun make mi worry anymore k?
after so many thiings had happen this few days
it could really make mi see clearly
wat is the stuff ii really wanna have..
wat is the stuff which ii really care and treasure..

ps: friends who had
worry abt mi really thx you for beiing there for mi
and follw up how's thiings goes..
really feel touch where you guys
care for mi.. thx..

happy birthday to be!
i wanna to be always the one who celebrate birthday with
you!(:
ii always wanna to be the one who see ur reaction when you see ur
present which ii bought for you ..
ha.. (:

幸福的定义是什么？

ha, so surprise that be answer was like that..
haha..
anyway good the morniing was on the way to work
then receive a msg from be..
then be ask where ii ..
then ii reply all that nor.
then after that mi and min er open the shop not long ago then be reach shop le..
then ii pass be de birthday gift and the christmas present..
then his raction was like .. haha..
funny can..
then we all talk talk talk..
then talk till ii wanna to cry out liao can..
humpp..
then ii went help auntie bank in money then back to shop ..
be still disturb mi say ii cry finish liao ar..
so naught of him can..

life could be so short and we have no prepare of anythiing might gonna
to happen ..
butt no matter wat happen is always good to have sum one there for you..
*be , ii dun need wat others to tell mi wat to do ..
this is my life this is my decision
and ii wanna to choose it all by myself.
and ii had make up my mind
to stay with you and walk with you..
and ii wont change my mind de..

2008-12-21T23:11:00.002+08:00

label.. : wat else can i do? waiting and waiting

huummpp..
four days never see him..
and three days never contact liao..
haix.. wat happen ?
we didnt quarrel
then the last msg he sent was sweet sweet de..
haix..
wat should ii do ..
ii worry till siao liao..
humpp..
is there anyway to reach him?
anyone could tell mi the address?
where as ii noe the block ii noe where level
butt dun noe the unit number..
haix.. ii seriously miss him like hell can.. !

be.. if ii had done anythiing wrong let mi
noe where ii did wrong.. then ii say sorry
or repay back.. ii dun wanna to be the last person
to noe everythiing..
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
haix.. when will ii be able to see you.. ?
ii totally miss you sia.
haix..
说好的幸福呢?
needed some an wei now can?

2008-12-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

label: breathless.. =x

humpp ii dun noe how to put in words..
had it never seems like him nor..
two days never msg..
calls also never returns..

just dun noe weather history will returns
anot. ii really dun wanna..
ii really dun wanna to go thiink abt it de nor
butt then ii have no choice de..
for friends who are there to cheer mi up..
thx for doiing all that ..
and askiing mi not to worry much..
thx for beiing there for mi..
butt ps to disturb you
all on this kind of stuff.. =x

be,ii dun wanna to be your
burden.. i'm just worry abt you..
butt then ii will stand firm to wait
for you to tell mi every thiings..
and ii really hoppiing that this wont happen again.
and will not happen again..
and ii will prove
that i'm totally
different from those gals
you use to noe last time de..

ii will love you til
the end of the time..

2008-12-19T13:31:00.003+08:00

label: totally of misses..

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

there are so many thiings
just keep repeatiing in my mind ..
butt just telliing myself for not thiinkiing abt it..
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,

be,ii just super miss you nor..
so much till ii lost the count.. =x
but ii just wanna to tell you
that i wanna to stick with you all the way till the end of the
time.. (:

important(:
countiing down be de birthday..
5 more day.. (:
countiing down for christmas..
6 more days.. (:
countiing for the very 1st month anniversary
13 more days.. (:

sian.. sian,..sian..
haviing a bad sore throat..
sob.. arrhh..

just now went to causeway
to find min er and wan qin..
then talk tak to them awhile then jiu go home liao..

min er ask mi how come ii emo?
ya.. how come ii emo?
ii dun no the answer ..
ii beri headache got so many many thiing to thiink
to worry..
if you were ask mi not to thiink and worry ..
how can ii not worry abt?
how can ii not go thiink abt?
i dun wanna be to have anythiing happen ..
ii dun wanna be to stress up himself..
ii dun wanna be to handle all alone by himself..
how much do i love you?
the answer is totally so important liao..
actually ii didnt notice until today
min er ask mi this question ..
is more till ii didnt notice..
be,wat abt you?how much you love mi?
be shouldnt we handle thiings together?
isnt wat a boy and girl frinend should do de mahx?
or izzit ii not longer that important to you le?
or izzit you gonna to push mi aside?
be pls dun take thiing all by urself can?
let mi be the one who share ur trouble with you..
let mi be the one who is there for you
when you need helps..

a relationship to mi is important ,
i dun carry those play play type of heart
i will beri serious when it come to relationship..

2008-12-18T23:49:00.002+08:00

label: how long will it takes?

sum time ii just feel that
ii will sum how miss him more then he miss mi..
how come?
ii not sure the feelings just happen
to come and go..
but one thing i'm sure is that
i do love him for who he is..

as time passes by the love
just contain a little bit more and more..
more till evey time when it is time to say bye
the pain and misses was
so obvious that we could see it just so
clearly..
iLOVEyou till the end of my life
and never be replace..

chriShirley(:

label: wat if..

wat if suddenly you felt that the relationship
had change from sweetness till non sweetness and then become
bitter?
wat will you do?
->try to figure out wat to do?
->try to sovle all the problem?
->let time to prove everythiing?
->end it?

oh man pls dun let this happen to mi!
arrrrhh.. , ii dun wanna the relationship just ended like this.
ii wanna to spent more time with him..
can i? pls.. ... .... .... ...

be say 3!
haha..
just you and mi noe-ing what it stand for..
ha.. !
on the way home today..
on trian was recalliing wat happen ytd..
ha.. make mi laugh like hell can..
be and mi was playing on the train..
using our body to push each other like blockiing each other..
so funny can.. ! haha..

humpp..
ii wanna to have O -U- -T- I- N- G with be !
-> ii wanna to go diao xia with be
->ii wanna go bula wubin with be
->ii wanna go take flyers with be
->ii wanna to take many pictures with be(:

2008-12-18T00:05:00.002+08:00

label:happy. (:

today end work then meet with bebe
at woodland de mrt station..
then pei bebe eat 1st..
then he order drinks for mii..
humpp then after that we go liao then
ii told bebe
that just now behing him
de uncle keep lookiing at mi
then he say he noe..
he saw.. that why he say faster drink then go liao..
lols..
then bebe sent mi up
then saw my mummy..
then he call my mummy..
zzz..
then mummy question mi why never ask him come in sit sit..
dots..
*mummy like bebe .. ii thiink..
haha..

2008-12-16T22:54:00.002+08:00

label: TiredtIredtiRedtirEdtireD

14-12-08
was workiing at west mall..
with alison..
no busy at all..
then tired mi and her eye gonna close norx..
haha.. *laugh..
then after that her bf come..
and her friends too..
then pack up .. laugh laugh
then talk awhile then ii jiu leave 1st..
cux takiing bus alone.. home..
and the bus was super de cold de nor..
sob..

15-12-08
ytd was the 1st day workiing at jurong point de new outlet..
humpp when walk inside there is super de cold..
butt then sian my shop is super de hot de nor..
butt luckily got one small fan below at the cupbored there..
learn the new stuff there..
where this and that was put..
learn how to do closiing there..
learn where is the toilet side..
haha..
and one thiing.. the shopping
mall there is SUPER de big.. !
then at night auntie and uncle sent mi home..
so good ..
tsk tsk..

16-12-08
today actually was workiing with ammelia de
butt she tu zhi tong
then jiu ally come aha..
then laugh laugh.. talk talk ..
then we eat gelare de waffle hlf price .. we both share.. haha.
actually boi today wanna come fetch mi de..
butt then was late liao then ii ask him to come tml instead..
*boi dun need to say sorry lahx..
cux uu also last min then say maybe will come fetch mi de mahx..
so never mind de.. haha. (:
loves. [3]

2008-12-13T22:23:00.002+08:00

label: totally of misses :)

today went out with sister just a while.
had lunch at new york new york.
then off to walk for awhile
jiu went home liao..
cux..
suddenly headache and tired..
then jiu went home rest liao..

sian sian sian..
sadded.. thiink will have a couple of
days that cant see until bebe liao..
sobsobsob..
miiss badly nor..
*just wishiing that he was readiing..
ermm..
ii dun no weather am i thiinkiing much or wat.
just a slight feeling that
are we diftiing apart?
will our heart still links?
will our bonds become more stronger and stronger?
bebe could you feel how much i just misses you..
but no matter wat happen
ii just wanna to stay long with you..
and wont let the past thiings happen again.
there is no history past but only future for us.. (:
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2008-12-12T23:09:00.002+08:00

sorry for lack of updates.. !
haha..
was busy workiing..
haha.. =x
and today i shall update due
to friend who wanna to noe wat had happen and goes on.. ahah..

10-12-08
was workiing with alison
at west mall..
humpp..
haha..
bebe book out the chalet with friends
then come find mi ..
and pei mi at work place the whole days
nor.. =x
is sweet nor..
then ii bo liao.. ii use a paper and write.. i love you wat about you..
on paper then
alison de answer was: i love you too(:
then ii tell boyfriend.. ii say
:you see she say she love mi..
boyfriend:then wat you want mi to do?
mi: i say then you never say you love mi?
boyfriend: take a marker and write.. I LOVE YOU!(: ha..
was just lamiing ard haha.. !
than after that ii got tell boyfriend and alison abt
got one customer keep ask my number all that and is a super old uncle
whom can already be my ah gong.. !
then boyfriend de reaction was:wat the hell..
and he say:
next time if he ask you for number again..
then uu give him my number.. ! omg! 1st time one guy say that to mi..
lols.. haha..
haha..
then a bit later alison de friends and stead also come..
then we all make frien make friend..
then after that pack up
thiing liao..
then go off downstair
they smoke
then after smoke
mi and bebe go walk to interchange take bus home..
while waiting for the bus bebe ask mi to
guess his hp de password..
and ii cant guess nor..
is hard lahx..
and is 8 letters of words.. =x
haha.. 1 whole hour de journey home.. (:
was tired the lie on bebe de shoulder slp slp..
haha..

11-12-08
haix.. sadded bebe went to malaysia with his church de friends..
sian.. haix.. work with min er..
and we had gelare ice cream haha.. (:
then after that off back home all alone.. =x
sob sob..

12-12-08
today also workiing with min er.. (:
bebe came back to singapore liao..
and sad thiings is that he was haviing high fever.. =x
arrhh..
i;m worry abt you can?
ii wanna to take care you.. !
ii wanna to be there for you .. !
ii misss you lahx..
*shy shy*
may my love power heals you faster.. !
hehe..

countiing down to his birthday ..
12 more days is his birthday .. !
haha.. cant wait to see his reaction..
when ii give him his birthday present. !
ahaha..
give mi a hug if you are happy ..
give mi a kiss if you are super happy haha.. !
jump jump.. !
*fairy god mother..
ii wanna this relationship to last super long de can ! haha..

get well soon bebe
with lots of loves(:

2008-12-05T09:44:00.002+08:00

ello.. every body i'm back to blogging..

humpp had been missing for
sum days. =x
ha.. busy workin lahx.. =s

ermm..
o2-12-o8
oh..really thx god that ii got
to noe you.. =x
humpp.. thx for sentiing mi home
evey time after my work..
i wanna to last long long with you lahx.. (:
love ya..

03-12-08
was workiing at west mall..
thx for travelling all the way from ur work place ther to my side to
fetch mi home. (:

04-12-o8
be! thx for waking up so early and travel from ur house
and accompany mi to work.. (:

every little thiings ii treasure it so much ..
no matter wat happen or wat will happen
ii just wanna to treasure all the stuff ii had with you..
wanna to count down every little anniversary just with you(:
a wanna a pictures of you and pitures od mi(:

2008-11-16T22:58:00.002+08:00

label: diappointed.. =x

15-10-08
today was so lookiing forward to
work with ai ai..
butt then in the midle of the work..
sum thiing happen..
humpp.. ii dame sad la..
ii go clear the table then bring back the
colours..
then ii put on the table the colours
fall and drop on the floor..
then ii faster pick up then
wanna to clear and so that ii could give to customer to use..
then can keep the place clean..
then ii go take the spare colour cux the
outside de have use finish..
then ii close the door softly and suddenly got customer
pop out sayiing excuese mi ..
meaniing askiing mi to take the pic..
then ii say softly wait..
then ii went back to clean the colur as ii had open the cap of the colours liao..
cux ii scare if ppl push the until the table then the clours will all
fall then the colours will all
make until the floor all dirty..
then uu suddenly shout at mi and sayiing ii fa wat shen jing?
shout at customer for wat?
then ii say ii never shout lorx.. ii just ask her to wait only that all
lorx.. then uu see .. if we shout at customer or never
say hao hao to customer they will
straight not happy and angry with uu liao and will
say wat kind of attitude is this..
butt she never nor..
that mean ii never shout lorx..
and ii was angry and ii talk back to uu is that
last time till now when ever we work
together uu never ever shout at mii like this before lor..
then uu like this shout at mii ii am dame super sad lorx..
then ii today go ask uu do uu noe why ii was so angry
when uu shout at mii ytd.. ? do uu noe where the problems lies on?
uu did not even reply mi nor..
haix.. ii really dun noe wat to say..
i'm a type of person if uu shout at mi for nothiing ii
will fight back de.. no matter wat.. =x
if take it as ii shout at you like this will uu angry and get disappointed?
of course right.. cux we use to be close then always work till beri happy then
this thing happen..
if uu thiink uu are doiing the right things then ii got nothiing to say ..
i;m not askiing for an sorry .. but ii just want u to go thiink abt it
where is ur mistake and wat uu had done
to make mi so angry..

label: talkiing abt realtionsip problem. =x
16-10-08
workiing wif yong jia..
then her bf come then we three talk abt
relationship de thiings.
humpp..
if a realationship there is no turst then stead for wat..
there is no point nor.. =x
heariing their friend de stuff..
his gf is just angry be cux the guy lies to her..
the guy will lies to her be cux he noes that his gf dun like him to play basketball..
but then he went to play basketball.
then his gf call and ask where are uu just now.. then he lies
he say ii was at home watchiing tv butt the real thiing
is that he was playiing basketball ..
then last time the gf always hang out with guys.
then her bf call then his gf will say i thought ii told uu that ii was doiing project with
friends? butt the real thiings is that she was shoppiing with them..
wow..
she can lies to him but he can lies to her. wat the hell..
the guy lies to her cux he really care abt his gf de
feeliing where as thiings she dun like him to do he wont do..
butt the gal lei? ii got nothiing to say her..
no trust then together so xin ku lorx..

2008-11-07T17:15:00.002+08:00

label: PAIN had gone far away..

just did my wisdom tooth operation ytd..
the moment where as the person in jab
to make us no feel at the gum when doiing the operation
is dame pain but when start of the operation u just feel nothiing..

but after that the pain was slowly back.. =x
and lot of blood was show.
now ii was still bleeding.. sian..
and mc for 6 days.. .. haix..

the 1st day of operation.. totally
of no mood to eat anythiing and do anythiing.. =x
but now slowly can eat a little..
thursday need to went back to take out the xian
from the gum.. haix..

2008-11-05T11:09:00.002+08:00

label: PainpAinpaInpiaN

dearest friend..
ii wont update for the time being..
anyway just to let u guys noe
that ii will be away
for operation..
for my wisdom tooth..

the pain is like hell can.. ~
location: tan tock seng hospital..

to friends..
thx for the care and concern u all show..

2008-10-31T00:35:00.003+08:00

label: wat the kcuf.!

brother was kanna hit by so many ppl..
wat the hell.. !
kao them lahx..
so many ppl wanna to eat one ppl ar?!
wat the fuck!
and sum more say that
hitting ppl is very fun.. enjoying. !
wat the fuck!
ask them go die lahx..
hoping that there is sum one that
who can catch them all!

29-10-08
ytd he wave to mii..
then after that he talk to mi also .. =x
humpp actually ii feel like avoidiing him.. butt then..
haix.. dun no wat to say.

2008-10-28T00:09:00.002+08:00

label: shock.. reaction :wat the kcuf!

humpp today gonna to open
door at 1030..am ..
and guess wat ii was early..
then reach there only abt 1010 like this.
then go open shop already.
then go pour water then saw him..
then he say good morning
to mi then ii smile then walk away..
then he say wow action sia..
then ii turn ii reply wat sia.. ~=z

then msg my kor..
then he reaply all that..
then suddenly his gf cut in msg mi
then after that she say watever uu wanna to msg him
or tell him text mi instead. !
koa super angry due to that ..
wat the fuck.. !
kor and mei cannot msg talk de mehx?wat the hell.. !
fuck her lahx.. !
her reaction let mi feel that she dun
trust kor at all nor..
see his msg all that ..
wat the fuck.. !
if a relationship there aint trust then wat for be together?

after work..
the "old man" come over to talk to mii..
shock sia.. 1st time he walk over to talk to mii..
humpp then ii told him abt the mi and his friend de thiings..
after talkiing to him ii feel that the stone just drop and ii feel
lighter nor.. =x haix..
then he beri good nor.. ang wei mi.. not to thiink so much..
then ask mii also dun care abt wat he thiinking.. =x

2008-10-26T23:58:00.001+08:00

label.. : aku rindu kau

ii totally miss the 1st time where
as we become friend then
dare to talk to each other.. =x

butt ii just dun no why we two will become
like this.. haix..

2008-10-26T00:06:00.002+08:00

label.. : was just so lost..

humpp.. today for the whole morning..
ii was so just so suer sad nor..
and then after that ai ai accompany mi go
buy the ice cream over at gelare..
then go over then talk to him for awhile..
then ii ask him why he like sad sad..
then he say he sick mahx.
then ii say orh..
then after which..
go back then see him go for break then msg him..
askiing is he okay.. cux he look beri sick..
then he never reply can!
humpp super sadded can.. ~..

then after which my friend come over to find mi then have a small talk
with her just to understand wat is he thiinkiing..
then after that when he is time to go home..
then he call mi to say bye..
is kanna happy can..
then his friend saw then his friend disturb mi also..
then also learn himsay bye to mi.. =x
so bad can~

then when ii close shop went oever to say bye to them then
one of his friend say ur sayang go home already..
he sick ar.. msg him k..
=x omg. ii thiink the whole gelare there noe that
ii like him..
butt we only friend mahx..
cux ii noe that we both cant de..
cux he is malay and i'm chinese.. =x

ps:ii thiink ii like him already.. [aku cinta kau]
then ii thought that he will msg mi or anythiing ..
but never nor.. humpp is super dame sad lahx..
ii thiink sum thiing went wrongs liao.. =x
ii just hope that he will msg mi or anythiing nor..

2008-10-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

label. : super dame sad.. !

humpp.. morning still okay lei..
butt then at night closiing shop
he sudde,ly change..
haix..
as usually,.. ii close the shop..
then ii go say bye to him then he smile sayiing bye too..
then ii go talk to the manager awhile..
then he suddemly cut in askiing mi to msg him.
then ii thought ii
hear wrongly.. then ii go..
uhuh.. ?
then he say nothiing..
then after that ii look at him again..
the manager also..
then he goes. like a little angry..
NOthiing.. =x\
then say go home go home.. -.-''''
sob.. he like angry nor..
then ii wanna to go off liao ..
then he say bye lahx.. go home lahx..
then ii angry nor.. cux he like talk to mii beri angry
way then ii dun like..
then ii shout shut up lahx.. =x

sob.. humpp
ps: boi do uu noe that the way uu talk just now.
was just so hurtiing.. humpp.. and ur reaction too..

2008-10-21T22:58:00.002+08:00

label.. : happy till siao.. !

19-10-08
haah..
work with my ah siao friend again..
then the people there was like OMG.. !
haha.. then the time passes so super fast nor.. =x
then we pack up liao then
before goiing to wash room say bye to the friends at gelare..
haha.. then from wash room come back
then he ask for my number again..
that was the second time. haha
then ii finally give him..
happy lahx..
then he really got msg mii nor.. =x

went home with a smile.. !

then mi and my friend walk to take the train.
then we talk till like smiling smiling..
then when ii drop down the train..
got one crazy guy pop out in the middle of no way
ask mi for my number sayiing wanna to make
friend.. then ii say dun want dun want..
then he say then email also can..
then ii say dun want dun want..
then he ask again..
he say uhuh.. really cannot ar..
then ii dun care him..
then he walk near to his place liao he say bye to mi
then ii say bye also..
he was like OMG! siao can!

20-10-08
workiing also..

21-10-08
workiing also..
then end work that time kanna
disturb by his friend.. =x
OMG! arrhh.. super shy can..
ps: ii thiink when mii him got work on the same day
his friend comfirm will disturb mii de.. =x

2008-10-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

label.. :thx for all the worrys uu had for mi=x
wat are friends for?

today went for work with
my dearest auntie jenny..
and after that my dearest friend come over.. =x

humpp.. sum time ii dame super angry with cuxtomer
who always thiink that the money they pay for is so dame
super big nor.. =x
they only care abt them self and not for
any other else..=x
so HEARTLESS!

anyway this fews day week..
he had always been msgiing mii
all the while..
askiing mi and that. =x
and thx for the worrys uu had for mii..

friends is sum one who will always be there for uu..
friends is sum one who will always keep u in mind.. =x
butt only ture friends will always there for uu and keep uu accompany.. =x

my tooth today is totally hurts like hell can..
feel like endiing the pain which one big knock.. =x
the pian is sum thiing which uu cant ta han de.. =x

2008-10-13T23:10:00.002+08:00

label: OH man! pls take away the PAIn..

i'm growing my wisdom tooth..
the PAIN was totally like HELL.. can~!
can eat this can eat that..
cant drink cold drinks all that.. humppp.. sob. =x

can anyone give idea?
-> should i or should i not take out the wisdom tooth?

he sent mi a msg..
and only one.. and without an reply..
wat the f***..
ii thiink ii will not bother him anymore..
had enough..
enough is enough..

2008-10-12T20:55:00.002+08:00

today just came back from malaysia..

went to my auntie de house..

cux my cousin de baby b'day.. (:

then went there shop shop here and there.

humpp.. again.. never receive any msg from him..

wtf.. ! he always like this de..

always msg when he like.

wtf.. he treat mi as wat sia..

kk .. now ii noe liao.. when he msg mii

then ii also dun reply him nor..

then let him got this type of feeling. =x

2008-09-27T22:49:00.002+08:00

label..: ii hates lies over again and again=x

ii just super hates lies..
if u just super dis like mi or anythiing..
u could just freaking come to my face and say it
all out de..
dun need to come up with another story
and just to hurt my feeling.. =x

2008-09-26T23:08:00.000+08:00

yes! today is the F1 thiingy..
meet up with sister her bf and her bf de sister..
then train down together to city hall there..
we four went in 1st then
after that my sister de bf de mei mei
de bf come meet her..
but then we all way different way..
i tag along with sister and her bf..
then we go find drink and food to eat..

OMG!

guess how much is the water there cost..

->plain water->$3
->100 plus->$3

->chips->$3
->mix of dian xim.. of 8 with a bottle of drink->$10
->sweet ad sour chicken with rice & a bottle of drink->$10
Ps:but okay lahx.. once in the life time(:

and i'm sure that u guys are waiting for the
video right haha.. =x
but picture 1st k?

the tickets of te F1
FRIDAY.SATURDAY.SUNDAY=x

the map of the F1 races

this took at raffles city inside..

now is video time(:
so people sit back and enjoy bahx..
anyway the video not beri clear cux is a distance away, =x

i'm done.. ! so night people(:

2008-09-23T22:47:00.003+08:00

hello people..
thiink you guys was wondering
wat happen to my blog right?
haha..
ii lace it private due to lack of updating..
and other stuff..

humpp.. 1stly .. let talk abt wat had happen
this few days..

off day.. [200908]
went out to town with alison.. (:
we went to eat..
then laugh talk.. all that..
hehe..
then actually thought of going to orchard to see things de..
butt then too tired of it liao.
then go home nor..
then msg him the whole day ..
one little single msg also dun have.. =c

[210908]
workiing with alison..
at wm.. haha..
then no really alot of ppl lahx..
then rest rest abit..
then end work bus home.. =x
*was also waiting for his msg then also dun have.

[220908]
working with wan qin..
at cwp..
then talk talk laugh laugh..
then saw my short one working today..
happy sia.. break with a smile.. (:
then play with wan qin till ii knock until the table.. =x
ouch! pain nor..

[230908]
workiing all alone..
sian.. butt one thiing heng is that time pass super de fast..!
then home.. then online.. =x
my dearest friend.. peep peep
talk to mi!
ii miss her sia..
miss those day workiing with her..
haha.. miss those day where we play till mad in
the shop(:
tml her birthaday..
HAPPY birthday peep peep(:
[again no msg. ! kao~]

[240908]
today workiing alone also..
humpp time was slow like hell can?
arrhh happy to see my shor one workiing today..
but sad is that he end work at 6.. haix..
just wish that he working full shift.
haha.. anyway an other thiing which i'm happy is that he smeil at mi nor(:
Zzzz..
met this mad customer..
pop in to my shop and ask mi did i see any bag?
then ii say no there wasnt any bag here..
then he say .. can uu find for mi the bag..
my daughter left here..
i say DUN HAVE in a nice tone at first then he keep repeat
asking mi to open all the cup board to see izzit in side..
then my mood and talkiing tone change..
then after that he took out his APPLE iPHONE to show off
and call to double check.. when was the bag left here..
then my mood was so bad while waiting for him to talk again..
ii say ..: i was here the whole days..
then ii also never seen any bag here..
if customer left their thiings here..
we will hang at the side at the door there..
and no put in the cup board..
then he REPEAT himself again..
kao!
then ii super no mood liao..
ii say there is no BAG HERE HOW U
WANT MI TO FIND A BAG FOR YOU?
then he walk away.
[also no msg no nothiing.. ]~

anyway just lookiing forward to friday[260908](:
haha.. cux my off day..
than also a day outing with sister and her bf..
but this time round we goiing to watch the F1 thiingy..
my sister got the ticket.,.
then this time round sister de bf de friend also tagging along with us.. (:
actually my sister ask got one more ticket see want ask who to go
but ii dun no ask who.. so ii say dun need liao..
so she say he bf de friend wanna to tag along then so the ticket was given to
sister bf de friend.. =x
sister say the show satrt at 10 then end at 12..
then mummy say the train was till 1 am like this..
ha.. that mean still got last train home(:
butt then the min i reach home ii need to wash up quicly then slp cux the
next day workiing.. arrhhh.. =x butt heng got three ppl in the morning to 6..
then at the mean while i still could rest awhile.. (:

haix.. ii was
just so doubt that wat he was talkiing..
ii just found out a little that i'm actaully nothiing to him .
and no longer anythiing to him.. =x
ami still the one u care?
i doubt so.. !

night. !
needed beauty sleep(:

2008-09-18T22:54:00.004+08:00

label: waiting waiting waiting..=x

this few days had been workiing
workiing and workiing..
then work till the date pass 090908..
just remember that he is goiing in for his ns liao..
time really pass so fast..
humpp the 1st day he went in ..
ii was the one who msg him 1st..
then talk talk ..

then after which every night he will just sent mi an sms
to talk awhile then say a good night then he went sleep..
*was it a good start?
*was it just normal.. ?
from now to next yr jan ..
is so far away 4 whole month..
but if we use heart to feel it.. it is just so near to us.. =x
when the 4 whole month had pass
then will be the answer liao..
*anyone noe wat will the answer be?
ii was just freaking miss you lahx!

anyway just found out that he was at the same camp
as my jie jie de bf.. a.k.a jie fu.. (:

finally my off day is TML hehe..
can rest liao hell lehx..
haha..
anyway sister got ticket for the f1 thiingy..
so mi her bf and her and one of her bf de friend goiing along with us..
yes! OUTING next friday..
will snap lot of pic.. (:
so people sit back and relax..

2008-09-09T14:37:00.003+08:00

no longer believe in anybody =x
sum time ppl ard you
especially the person who is so close to you..
the more you trust in them
the more they will over take you.. !

ps: i thiink ii will never forgive you!

2008-09-05T22:50:00.002+08:00

label: wat the f**k! RESPECT horx!

ask my brother to study
like ask him to go die like this..
ii take back my psp from him ask him
go study then at his room scream like
NO BODY BUSINESS like this..
then ii cant ta han..
then ii open his door..
then he push mi smack mi ..
then ii angry ii hit him back .
then he scream at mi ..
ii really cant ta HAN
then ii give him one tight SLAP on his face.. !

u show mi ur F**kiing attitude
then ii will show u back mine.. !
I"M UR SISTER horx..not anybody esle horx..
if next time u grow up
then only left mi and you..
you show mi this F**king attitude..
ii will show u back twice.. the time of it..

i'm so super PISS off every time comiing home from
work there liao then come home then still got this
KAO.. ! make mi more piss off..
wat the hell..
dad say i never have the nai xing..
to teach him..
butt did he have the nai xing to learn anot..
heaven even teach finish then he start to shout give face..
make the whole house like NOTHIING like this..

*SUM TIME I FEEL THAT THINGS WILL BECOME MORE WORST
IS THE PEOPLE WHO GET SCOLDED WHO START THE THINGS 1st DE NOR.

pls lahx..! you how old liao..
goiing to pri six liao okay..
pls ur ur BRAIN and thiink abt it lahx..
then when people ard you start to quarrel be cux of you
then u will just say .. and shout
: OKAY lahx. my fault my fault. !
wat the f**k!
like this isnt it too late?
PLS THINK ABT IT when you do thiings lahx..
i also tired of sayiing much lahx..
i WEI XIN WU KUI can liao.. !

last time you wont like this de nor..
is just that you mix with the wrong friends..
then you be come like this nor..
wat then f**K..
I NOW DUN WANNA TO SAY HIM
then wait till he do wrong thiing and worst le then
who go help him?
no body right?

laster his EXMA result come fail ike hell .. !
then u will blam mi even more..
for not teachiing him..
uu want to tech him he want to listen mahx..
wat the f**k!
then i talk to you this thiing then you talk to mi the other thiings..

label: to dad,
if you thiink that i never did the sister role good enought then i
only could say i just like this nor..
ii really cant ta han abt wat brother is doing..
you look at urself nor.. his attitude toward mi. dun need to say towards mi ..
even toward you all .. is also the same..
the only matter which only can make sure he wont walk to wrong path of road..
is to give him the hard way.,. he already so bad liao..
u give him and show him the soft way u will only make him walk iing the path more worst nor..
he will just not take it seriously nor..
and you say that i;m shoutiing at you .. sorry nor.. ii wasnt shoutiing at you nor..
you go thiink abt it nor.. wat i say..

label: I REALLY CANT TA HAN liao.. =x
i wanna to scaream out loud!
all my xin shi....

and is there anyone noe that i'm f**king stress this few days.. !
had to worry on the money to spent then had to thiink abt how to
earn more to lesses dad needs..
for house all that?
did my dad go thiink abt it anot?~
i cant dun work de nor..
i could even carry on to study the thiings i like but ii
help my dad to thiink abt it..
so i had no choice to work 1st nor..
i noe that he doesnt have much to affort..
then i wont ask for much lehx..
i spare a thoughts for them but did they ?
wat the f**k..
sum time ii just feel that ii work so hard then
after all ii earn the money is
just to pay off this and that ..
then just save a little..
wat for.. !
ii thiink ii just like a slave then earn to help to pay this and that..
then still like give you all allownace like this..
wat the f**K..
why must i let myself to work so much ..
is just one word..
XIA XIN nor..
ii just dun wanna to see you all work till so hard.. and tired..
at this age.
butt did you all come care and ask abt mi work thiing..
NEVER k! you all just never care abt mi at all..
never even ask how;s work today... ?
never even ask wat happen .. ?
never even ask anythiing happen?
do i just only worth a little cariing given when it only PAY day?
wa KAO!
sum time ii just feel and wish that my mummy and dad was sum body esle.. !
butt then ii had no choice..
just to accept. the fact..

sign off with
DISAPPOINTMENT!

2008-09-03T14:38:00.002+08:00

lable; there is chances for us..
then future is created by people

6 more days to ur ns day..
27 more days to ur birthday..

i;m so glad to see ur reply ..
i;m glad that u say that there is still a place.
i'm glad that u noe that i'm waiting for you..

humpp..
times really pass that super fast..
just one blink then is sept liao..

2008-08-27T23:31:00.003+08:00

today wake up ..
then make almond de jelly
then bath.. then dress up then out down to work place..
reach work place..
then slack slack..
shopping around..
back to shop..
then talk talk awhile then home..
then before home went opp my shop
de gelare to say bye to the people there
then he say bye to mii nor..
then he also smile at mi haha..

this was the 1st time he will auto smile.. (:
last time he wont de haha.. =x

counting down to o3o9o8
outing with darlink(:
alison hehe
night..

2008-08-26T23:30:00.003+08:00

label: still having a hard time. i'm trying my best=x

all this while was busy workiing..
and it had become a xin guan..
wake up . bath . slack . work .
then
work . pack up . home . bath . slp..
and it always repeat.. =c

now a days ii just feel that..
is important to see people who u are mixing with clearly..

i still wanna to call you dearest.
i still wanna to see ur msg ..
i still wanna to see ur calls..
i still wanna to hold on to ur hand..
i still wanna to have memories which belong to both of us..
there are so many many thiings i wanna to have with you..
ii just hope dream will become true..
cux it seem so real in dream .
where i could see mi and you de future.. =x
butt ii noe that dreams is always dreams..
will there always be a day that it will come true..
sum time ii always thiinkiing how had uu been..
好想问你过的好吗？
好想问你还爱我吗？
boi :
i just wanna to tell you this..
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀

ps: thx aiai[leng] for supporting mi all the way..
and there with mi when i need help..
there to cheer mi up..

count down the day off to GENTING again..

2008-08-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

planning for a COUNTED down chalet..
for new year.. (:

anyone?

2008-08-21T19:39:00.003+08:00

all this while was being workiing.
hummpp so will up date lesses..

was so shock that he talk to mi online..
butt then ii was so sorry ..
a million of sorry..
cux ii didnt answer bck him in a nice way..
but it was a normall reactiion when he
make mi so sad last time..
and always make mi sad sad.. =x

butt if you still care de hua you wont
reaction so fast and say that is not important liao mahx..
i was always waiting.. for your real answer..
if just due my reaction will change everythiing..
this is not ai qing at all..
and is not the ai qing that i wanted.. =x

if you are just so easy too let go this r/s de hua
you are not truely love mi de mahx..
if you still care . then you should not important le mahx..

wanna to plan an event so that we all could meet up..
miss those days in school and class..
and every break time we will always go tamp mall eat luch all that
or even every single outing after school.. =x

2008-08-16T00:32:00.003+08:00

humpp ii gonna to intro you my new family member(:
pic of it will up date soon(:
hehe..
guess wat izzit..
hehe..

today went out with my
work friend(:
hehe..

humpp went to orcard..
then walk walk around..
then eat also..
oever rall.. is funny..
wanna more outiing with her(:

label:humpp. do you noe that i just feakiing MISS those days althought is short but it
just cant feakiing cant leave my brain..
OH gosh! wat am i doiing.. wat the hell..
you feakiing hurt mi so much but yet i just feakiing miss you so much .. wat the fcuk!
loviing you too so much then love till so painful..
i thiink ii will took a feakiing far long long time to forget about you..
wat the fcuk.. !
ii was so controliing myself not to contact with you.
butt ii just cant help it..
ii told myself not to thiink abt you ..
butt the more i wanna to forget abt you the more i tend to
remember every little bit thiings of you.
ii always told myself that is not a big big thiing of you leave mi ..
butt ii really do do fell and do do will MISS you feakiing much!
dearest.. ii thiink uu will never NOE how was i FEELING inside.. !

ytd i had a dream. fair god mother told mii.. that ..
ii will meet the right one soon..
meet the one who never let mi drop tears..
meet the one who cares for mi then anythiings else..
meet the one who love mi more then anythiing else..
meet the one who will give in to mii(:

time to say good night..
time to cry to sleep..
time to say goodbye..
time to stop thiinkiing..

2008-08-14T23:15:00.005+08:00

thoughts for this few days..
humpp had been thiinkiing alot of stuff..
sum time ii will recall wat will make us from strangers to friends
from friends to lovers..
then lover becomiing to strangers again..

and hw come in the 1st place ii wil
accept you for who you are..
then been together..
then end up walkiing the different path..
truthfully speakiing ii stil thiinking abt you..
butt then ii really try so hard of wantiing to forget abt you.
butt is so hard..
the more i wanna to forget abt you the more i tend to
remember everythings abt you.
haix..
butt now uu are totally not beonging to mi any more.
you can do wat ever you like or dun like
and is no longer my business liao.. =x

i was thiinkiing few more month down the roads
or even few yrs down the roads if
we got the fate to knock into each other
on the road side wat will it be?
1>will we say hi?
2>will we just walk away?
3>will we stare at each other for a few seconds?
humpp actually ii dun no.

secondly up loadiing over due pic(:

gift from friends..

during my 18th birthday(:

02.08.08
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pictures for09.08.08

thiings my sister catch at arcarde for mi(:

video for the fireworks..

ps: ii thiink is not that clear.. =x

2008-08-12T22:44:00.002+08:00

humpp.. so tired nor.. al the while workiing workiing..
then also got lazy of up datiing the blog.. haha.. so today
up date the long long one haha. (:

9th of august..

was the SINGAPORE birthday.. !
haha.. meet out with sistaer and her boyfriend..
ahah..
then we all went to arcard...
they go catch those bear bear. then
ii sit there to wait for them nor..
butt then ii also got present nor..
my sister colect bear bear for mii haha..

pic for those thiings they catch will upload soon.. (:

then after that we all went for our

DINNERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR(:

guess wat we eat!

haha..
is the pariss restraunt..
we eat the buffet there..
then each person cost $45 dollar..
ha.. okay lahx.. once in the life time..
so is okay(:
then at the same point also got watch until the
fire works.. haha..
vedio will upload soon too.. (:

then after dinner..
before we wanan to go home
they go arcard again.. arrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhh
then on the way to arcard saw load of blood at the shoppiing central..
then also got police.. ahah..
cux got teenages fightiing.. LAME lahx..
then went arcard there sister boyfriend catch until the minnie
mouse for sustaer due to
the help of the arcard person nor haha.. (:

then train home..
angry sia.. !
humpp.
there are so many place in the train then got one person sittiing
in the middle of the seats.. then ii ask kindly
ask her to move to the beside sit nia nor..
then she give mi a FUCKIING looks and attitude.. !
kao.. ! also not say dun have space liao le.. kao..
dun let mii see her again..and some more only sit for one stop..
never bring brain out or wat sia.

2008-08-02T07:39:00.003+08:00

HARLOW!

a very good MORNING to
all my DEAREST friends

iiLOVEyou all.. !
haha..
for ppl who count down with mi
PEARL thx horx.. haha..
always the 1st one to count doen with mii =x

today is MINE OFFICALLY 18 bday wor!
finally man!haha.

ps:thx people for coming and helpiing mi to celebrate bday.. (:

humppp.. touch la.. (:

2008-07-31T23:55:00.002+08:00

boooooo!
is gonna 12 ' o clock!
that means..

is the 7th months=x
hungry ghost.. !

*when ppl call uu or tap uu dun anyhow look
back wor.. ! haha.

24 more hours to
go .. haha..
lalalalala..
countiing down..
guess who will be the 1st one to great mii.. (:

2008-07-28T13:18:00.004+08:00

i'm back!
ha.. it had pass so long
ever since i last blog..
and it gonna to be end of the month liao..
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

so lookiing forward to
the bday buffet..
ha..
bu neng shou chu de mi mi..
-> sister say the bday cake was 2.5kg.. [square shape][winnie the pooh bear] =x
->vodka
->red wine
->beer? [dad's friends (:]
->foods [mu haha]
->games?

was just so sad that
my 100 bucks was missing.
arrrrrrrrrrrhhh
so sad.. humppp.. =x
sob sob..
cheer up~[tryiing too]

after today..
still left 96 hours left(:
anyone wanna to accompany mi to count down bday?

2008-07-13T21:37:00.002+08:00

back form malaysia trip with
parents and auntie..
to my third auntie de house..

haha..
the trip was okay..
is just that weather was hot..
butt when it is night time it was so cold nor..
and auntie de house the air- con is 24 hours on de nor..
so when uu come back from the hot hot place outside
the mintue uu step into the house uu will feel very relax de.. aha
*pic at malaysia will upload in the next post..

happily countiing down for my S-W-E-E-T-18 haha..
18 more days to august!
parents and mii planning to open the party..(:
so
A-T-T-E-N-T-I-O-N people..
pls comfirm with mii weather uu wanna to come mahx.. =x
then ii will plan the place and time to fetch up uu all (:
the buffet will only be start at eveniing time.. till at night
wat time uu wanna to left at night also can..

->will be playiing cards..
->got majong also..
->got karaok also..
->got food & drink..
->got red wine. got beer ..
*can plan the thiings uu wanan to do also..(:
and etc..
*arrrrrrrrhhh.. last but not least.. no WATER BOMB horx.. ! haha =x
last year nearly kanna from classmate from ite de..
*so bad of uu all*
and so suay that b'day was fall on marfa test...
butt heng this year no more schooliing liao.. so no more narfa test..
and the narfa test no longer falliing on my b'day haha. (:

2008-07-08T23:08:00.002+08:00

wat will uu do
if one day uu found out that
one of ur closer friend like the same person as you?

*will uu choose to give up?
*will uu go for it?
*will uu let the guy to choose?

ps: i thiink ii like uu..
thx for the cariing and the worries for mii.. (:

2008-06-29T12:15:00.002+08:00

some time i thiink that
the thiigs which u wanan to
forget and
wanan to gie up will be more harder
then when u dun give up..
ye yao fang qi ye fang bu xia..

humppp.. but life still goes on..
ii should not had agreed on the
patchiing back..
is was so .. a REGRET.
butt anyway ii also never
put too much in it..
so is still early for mi to get back in my life..
all by myself
>.<

arrrhh.. all this while was busy
workiing so out of time to update..
humpp..
CHIONG arr...
then getting rich and richer.. haha

anyway changiing my ku990 to other phone
soon liao.. ha..
butt ii kanna scoldiing from my friend sia..
haha. cux ii only use the ku990 abt 4month plus nia..
ha..

anyway sweet countiing down to my SWEETTTTTTTTTTTT 18 la..
haha.. then can go CHIONG with friends all liao.. haha..
anyone?
haha..

2008-06-16T08:27:00.002+08:00

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was workiing

with my secondary school friend..

humpp so long bo work with her le..

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workiing all by myself at west mall.. =x

so sian and the time pls pass faster a little.. (:

cux ii wanan to go home and rest..

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yes la! workiing with my aiai today..

humppp..

we two also slack slack de.. hehe..

then keep lookiing forward to

the song of "TOUCH my BODY"

haha.. then when ever we hear that song we will laugh

till hell nor..

then finally today got play nor.. haha.. =x

ps:humpp so sad nor.. must wait till long long

then can work with her again.. arrrhhh

ii miss her nor =x

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was workiing with the new girl at west mall

then train her there..

humpp pretty okay..

can slack slack nor..

haha..

then when wanan to finish work we make a joke nor..

then laugh till hell.. haha.. >.<

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haha.. today ii make wan qin laugh

like hell duriing work nor..

haha..

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today was father's day..

humpp give boss a card..

haha..

he was so surprise nor..

haha..>.<

then boss (ah ma) say his reaction

was

:"aaaaaa... ii also have ar?"haha..

then ah ma:"ya lorx.. ah ma have ah pa where

can dun have (: "

aiyo happy jiu hao lei..

haha..

then today was talkiing abt ex de stuff..

and guess wat when i reach

home ONLINE..

he talk to mii and say sorry..

then ii say sorry abt wat?

then he say every thiings ii wrote on the nick and

pm..

then ii say orh.. humpp never mind la..

then guess wat!

guess wat!

he say thiis to mii..

:"should we patch or do we still have the chanc of

patchiing back.. "

ii was shock la.. !

butt then ii dun no how to give him an answer..

cux ii dun no weather it will

still turn turn out to be the same

as last time..

cux ii really cant take thoes hurts once again..

he say he wanna to settle down..

and he also wanna to go for his ns soon le..

then he dun wanna to have any regret..

then he ask mii if ii could accompany

be the one who settle down with him.. ? =x

if he was ask this just a little early..

ii might agree.. and never gonna thiink twice

butt now ii will thiink abt it..

people who tell mi this..

->boss ah ma &ah pa.. [no]

->leng*aiai.. [no]

->wan qin.. [no]

->lian*peep peep..[say REJECT]

arrrrrrrrhhhh any body could tell wat to do ?

follow the heart?

humpp though ii still love him..

butt then ii just dun wanan to get the hurts again..

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OMG!today will be my last day of work..

and then ii got my off day..(:

SWEET laaaaaaaaaaaaa!

and still have 14 more days

to my

SWEEEEEEEEET pay(:

hehe..

so lookiing forward(:

ps:still doesnt know wat to answer him.

2008-06-10T21:28:00.002+08:00

humpp..
whole week workiing workiing..
then finally today got off day
liao.. then
went out with leng*aiai.. (:

went sentosa..
then got sun burn.. arrhh..
humpp

friends say that my sickness is getting
more and more worst.. =x
ii just cant help it liao..

thx ppl:
those who had worry for mii
and always there for mii
ths ar.. and sorry to keep uu guy worry..
humpp will try my best to take good care..

WAT A DISAPPOINTMENT AGAIN!
i say:uu really wanan mii to go for another guy?
if that what u want to see then maybe i should bahx..
but like this i wont happy de nor.. u thiink other guy wolud be
better for mi ? but to mii uu already very good liao..
he say:i dun no if de guy is good anot.. but i jus dun wan to hurt u anymore..
i say:why wanna to keep sayiing this.. ?
he say:err.. cux i nw not goiing into any r/s yet.. so if u keep waiting
den i scare u waste time..
i say:butt if uu could tell mii uu still love mi and uu could have a comfirm
answer i to it i dun find it a waste of time..
he say:err..but wat can u do for mi?how much u love mi?
i say:just like the way uu love mi last time nor.
he say:ask u sum thiing hope uu dun mind.. would u change for ur bf?
i say:change? as in? just e straight forward.
he say:like make up and dress up..?
i say:of course go our with bf and friend will make up la..
we will break up due to that?
he say:not that reason.. i;m just askiing.. i thought uu UNDERSTAND mi

this last sentence DISAPPOINT mi the most!
if ii really do UNDERSTAND you..
we wont ended up like this liao.. le..
sum tiime ii feel that uu are just putting the blame on mii..
ya.. !
that it..
WELL DONE! uu had make mii totally feel
DISAPPOINTED in you liao